About A Girl

i talked to you tonight
to sort things out the right
way that we used to be
when you were still here with me

[aLm m b s 2wing mLLmaN kNg
mLngk0t k gs2 kTa LapiTaN ykaPn
ng sbRnG hGpt at sBhnG "and2 Lng ako..
kso d ko mGwa kc dko Lam kNg ako
aNg keLanGan mo..
:'c]

i wanted you to know
if you have loved me so
then why didn’t you let me know
coz i didn’t want to let you go

[Mnsn ntanong m0 c0..
kng sy0 lng b tlga c0..
d kta cng0t..
naicp c0 lng kse..
arw2 m0ng tntgnan kmay m0..
bat d m0 mkitang hwak m0 pus0 c0?...]

so why don’t you just runaway from here
coz i don’t want you to get hurt
by me this way
you loved me to the point where i was lost
and that i couldn’t catch you there
right there

[una tnruan mo kng mgng
kybgn k,'sn0d tnruan mo ko mplpit syo
tp0s tnruan mko mhlin ka,
sna wg m0 ng ituro skin
n klimutan k kc
mhal n kta,
ayw ko ng m22 pa..]

so just runaway
runaway from here
won’t you runaway
runaway from here

and i will never know
if we could ever go
the way that we should be
the way that we should be

i just had my 24-hour duty. it was fun! haha! first day sa bacte… why not? nakakainis dahil marami na namang imememorize. grrr! that’s something i hate to do! thank God, Jobs is my groupmate. He has always been so helpful.

yesterday (all my troubles seem so far away? hahaha!) oo kahapon, pinag-uusapan nila ung mga dating interns sa world citi. mga kakulitan, KALOKOHAN, mga PNB, mga kabuteng sumusulpot pag may outing at marami pang "chuvalu" (according to sir Eric). tapos napunta na ung usapan sa outing. haay… art class ba ito? drawing sessions na naman! ewan ko! party pooper e no?! pero pag kc may mga ganyang plano… heller! ten years bago magkatotoo! not because i’m a party pooper (pero hindi talaga ko party girl yuck magagawa ko hahaha!) hindi lang tlaga ako naakit sa idea na un. plus the fact that they are giving out 3 days off to those who’d stay. ok sige na, PNB na kung PNB. Si sir Eric kc pa-uso e.

the reason i’m not going is not because ‘nasilaw ako sa 3 days off’ but because i don’t have the money to contribute. yun ngang usapang fund sa hospital hindi ako nagbbayad, P500 pa para sa outing. i don’t like to ask my parents for money just because i want to go to an outing. i mean if i want to go out, i will but i’m going to use my savings. heller!sagot ko na ung luho ko diba? kakahiya naman kcng manghingi nlang parati. plus the fact that they give me a thousand bucks a week parang nakakahiya nang manghingi. un lang! PNB na kung PNB… wlang bread e! i rest my case. (iniisip mo cguro kung ano ung PNB)

i was playing killer [arcade pool] at the laboratory. saya nun! alala ko tuloy ung sa pansol. i’ve never heard of that game until that moment. pauso ni ron. tinuruan si ada and serge. i miss my HS friends. we usually go out after class. spending 80 bucks at this billiard hall at tunasan. si balong yung nagturo saken magbilliards. astig!

something made me sooo happy this day! masaya ko, un lang… =)

at ang matampuhing si Sir Eric pala e maka-Sun. Sorry they lost game 1 at their own backyard! GO SPURS ito! hahaha! Sir Vynz saw me when he arrived. It was 9am (i think). He was asking me why i was still there. i pointed at the TV. He was like… ‘Ok…’ hehehe!

kachat ko si ina…

gotta go to bed! soooo sleepy! gnyt!

i don’t have to go to the hospital today! =) DAY OFF!

last tuesday [May 17, 2005] i was supposed to go to school to meet my groupmates so we could pass at least the draft of our thesis. but then i was so damn wasted the day before that. i decided to go home around 7pm [after my friend and i talked about the draft of the thesis]. moreover, i decided to go to Lawton because i was too scared to walk on the streets of Cubao. i even missed my stop so i had to walk from Lodora to Sto. Niño. that night, i said i’d just sleep for ten minutes then i’d start working on our thesis. but no! i slept for 10 hours before i woke up to work on our thesis. thank God i was able to at least give something to my groupmates. although, i was not there. i was glad i could help. then, i went to Quezon City.

when we arrived [i saw Jobert and Marian at the LRT station], it was like HELL! Everything was just so messed up. There were a lot of specimen atop the sink waiting to be processed! There were papers everywhere! And it seems like their world was turned upside down! Basta everything was sooo messed up! you know what’s worse? we had to do the cleaning and processing and all that sh*t! argh!i don’t actually know what the cause is, [if i was just really hungry, or if i just woke up at the wrong side of bed, or if it was the way the laboratory looked that is really annoying me] but i was really really irritated! nakakapang-init talaga ng ulo! besides that, they had to eat lunch which leaves us doing all the processing of specimen and cleaning the lab. i really really hate it! thank God everything went back to normal. and so i was okay.

it was 5pm when i told Jobert that i had to go home early because i didn’t tell my parents about me going to the hospital to work. so we said our goodbye’s and went home. oh wait! yeah! the reason i’m not on duty today is because ma’am Al gave us our OFF! Yey!!! She was nice enough to give us 7 days less make-up and an off! I thought giving us 7 days LMU was great! but giving us a day off was just FABULOUS! before going to the LRT station, we went to Jollibee to eat. i was sooo hungry! the sky was not looking so good. it was only 6pm but it was dark outside already. so unlikely. so we went home.

i’m confused. i have been thinking a lot about this lately and i really can’t figure out just what i want. it’s been one week since i last went to the dormitory. i always want to go home after the end of each day. i think i’m getting used to it. now here’s the thing, i don’t know if i want to move out. i have my friends there. i only get to see them after our duty or on tuesdays when we go to the school for our thesis. i mean, we don’t even go out anymore. we talk less now than before. i’m going to miss them if i would go home everyday. no more late night talks. no more tong-its/pusoy. ano ba to? and now that i go home everyday, it’s senseless to pay the rent every month. that’s almost two thousand bucks. that’s a big deal BIG DEAL for me [and of course for my mom and dad]. i can’t open the topic to them because i’m still not sure of what i want. besides, summer’s going to end soon and i’m pretty sure that it would be much difficult for me to travel everyday. moreover, we are going to have our seminar every tuesday. it’s going to be really rainy soon and i hate rainy days [i would have a hard time walking from MRT to LRT especially during the morning when Farmer's Plaza and Gateway Mall are still closed]. man, i hate this situation. still confused. but happy i’m home =)

could it be my new home? after spending 3 months @blogspot, why am i moving here at friendster? to think a friend of mine moved to another domain because he wasn’t satisfied with what friendster had to offer. well, yeah, the best things in life comes at a price [not all, i guess.. but i was referring to the 'upgrade your blog' thingy]. so here i am, not making sense at all [like how i usually am].

just checking everything out. keeping my options open. BTW, i still have my blog at blogspot.