About A Girl

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     How does one avoid loss in the first place? Contrary to popular belief, it’s not attachment that causes loss — attachment feels fine. It’s detachment that hurts. Learn to let go.

     Some suggest that to avoid loss, one should never be attached to anything. They give the example of a hand in water: when the hand is removed from the water, the hand leaves no impression. These people say the reason the hand leaves no trace in the water is because the water is not attached to the hand.

     On the contrary, while the hand is in the water, it is very attached to the hand. It surrounds it, enfolds it, embraces it. Allow yourself to experience life as fully as water experiences the hand, then let go as completely as water.

     Yes, the water leaves a little of itself on the departing hand, as we leave a little of ourselves with the people and things we touch, but for the most part, when it comes time to go, let go.

     The hand could no more hold the water than the water could hold the hand. As soon as one "wants" to leave, there is no attachment, because there can be no attachment other than the mutual action of being together. Hand and water both accept the inevitability, and part "clean."

     Say good-bye, let go, and embrace the new moment.

[from Life 101 by John-Roger & Peter McWilliams]

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this is it. this is the end.

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what’s new with cali’s world?

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i noticed that i haven’t written anything for two weeks now. it’s not that nothing — rather, nothing worth writing — has been going on in my life. the fact of the matter is i have some things going in my life but i can’t seem to find the time to put them into writing.

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it’s been a month now since i found a job. yes, i do have a job now but then, i have to admit that there are times when i find myself still with college hangover. back in college, i do as i am told as an intern. right now, i have to acquire more knowledge about decision making. i have to be independent. i have to grow up. there is just one thing that i could wish for — that i could just go back to being the girl whose world revolves solely on the four corners of her classroom, one who plays with kitchen sets and barbie’s. but here i am, growing and still growing..

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i haven’t received my first paycheck yet but then i have this question. where did my parents ever get the money to send us to school, to pay the bills and to put food on the table? whenever i have that thought, i am really in awe that my parents were able to do all these. i can only wonder if i could do the very same thing and more for my own family.

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being on your first day at your first job is quite the experience. it’s as if you are a kid who is just learning how to walk. expect a lot of mistakes, a lot of bloopers. for a lot is yet to be learned, one must keep an open mind — humbling the self enough and admit that you know nothing. sometimes it can really be frustrating — you think you are doing the best you can but your best just doesn’t seem to be good enough. they say, patience is a virtue (but as i always say..  it is not MY virtue). i always tend to find myself frustrated because i know less. i want to learn everything now. i want everything in an instant as if it were possible. things take time and with that said, i need to find a space for the word patience in my vocabulary. besides, one must learn first how to walk before one could run.

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i hate myself when i don’t do as i say. for that matter, i hate it when people don’t do as they say. i would not like to elaborate on this matter. i just really hate it when people don’t do as they say. enough said.

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new about me. i — for the first time — attended a fellowship. and i — for the first time — watched a free friday night movie at CCF. it was sooo fun. i like movies. i actually love movies. thank God for this wonderful movie that i saw for free last friday. the title of the movie is "Love comes softly." it is such a wonderful film. watch it!

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just a thought: being single is not really bad at all.

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time flies sooo fast. i can’t believe that it is actually march. and soon, it’ll be december. all the plans that i did for this year — well, i don’t know if i can still accomplish them. having a new job and all, i never realized it would take me sooo much energy to adjust to my new environment. but then it’s way too early to quit. i can still here voices in my head… run cali, keep running, keep running.

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just another thought: cranky people didn’t get enough sleep! SO I HAVE TO GO TO BED AND REST! i missed you my dear void.

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