About A Girl

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"GOD WILL PROVIDE!"

paulit-ulit ko nang sinasabi to. magagasgas na tong linyang to saken! si God, mabait talaga. kahit sa pasaway na katulad ko. ilang araw na ba na kahit mainit ang ulo ko e pinagpapasensyahan pa rin ako ni God. kahit na late akong gumigising o nakakatulog man sa bus, nakakarating pa rin ako sa work ng 6:29! san ka pa?! may malupit na divine intervention talaga!

july 27. friday night. nung pauwi ako, tinext ko yung kaibigan ko kung tuloy ba yung lakad namin. may plano daw sya for the night. naisip kong friday night movie nga pala sa CCF. tinext ko si viene. wahlah! may kasama na kong manood nang movie! at take note! IT’S FREE!

july 28. sabado. ngayon yung araw na na-set para sa cinemalaya na kasama ko yung mga college friends ko. (yun nga lang pala, tatlo lang silang dumating kasi yung tatlo pa, nagbbusybusyhan!). ang masaya pa jan? yung isa kong dorm mate dati na kasama ko last year sa cinemalaya, nacontact ko ulit! tagal na kaya naming di nagkikita! 

inintay ko sila sa starbucks sa may vito cruz. papalampasin ko ba naman ang pagtambay sa starbucks ng walang java chip frap? xmpre hindi! nung umorder ako, napansin kong mahaba yung resibo ko. kako, baka hindi nabigyan nung barista ng resibo yung bumili bago ako. pero hindi! akalain mong nabigyan ako ng complimentary drink!!! ang bait talaga ni Lord! alam nya kasing wala na kong pera! nyahahahaha! God will provide!

nung nasa starbucks na lahat, dumerecho na kami sa CCP. akalain mo nga naman talaga ang powers ni God! nakadelehensya pa kami ng passes! isipin mo naman lima kaya kami! at lahat kami nakakapasok sa theater ng walang bayad! ganun kalupit yun! sayang nga lang hindi ko naabutan yung ‘nineball’ sa shorts A. late na kasi kaming dumating. pero ayos lang. maganda yung still life! sobrang natuwa ako! yung pisay, puno ng words of wisdom. nakanaman!

salamat nga pala kay reigna, jame at roger sa pagpunta. nawa e nagenjoy kayo.
salamat kay jo… eto na naman tayo! next year ulit!
salamat ng maraming marami kay mama kris! salamat po sa passes at sa dinner.
at salamat sa nanay at tatay kong pumayag na gumala ako hehehhe!
at salamat ng marami kay God. astig na experience! can’t wait for next year. sana mas lumawak pa ang audience na ma-reach ng indie films.

God will provide me with what i need. and if He wills it, He will give me what i want. at kahit kailan, hindi magagasgas ang "GOD WILL PROVIDE." after all, He gave His only Son, why else would He not give freely everything else?

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july 26. alas-singko. naalimpungatan ako. tinignan ko ang oras sa relo ko, bigla kong naisip na kailangan ko palang pumasok sa trabaho. bumangon ako. naligo. nagbihis. nag-ayos ng dadalhin. umalis. maaga nga ako nagising pero tanghali na ko nakaalis. e pano ang bagal! sa isip-isip ko "parang ganitong oras din ako umalis kahapon ah."

mabait talaga si Lord saken. nakasakay ako sa isang BBL na bus. take note! nakaupo pa ako kahit sa kanto lang namin ako nag-abang ng masasakyan! maayos naman ang biyahe. walang trapik. parang inadya talagang pumasok ako ng maaga. walang problema sa alabang bridge. maluwag sa sucat. mabilis ang takbo namin sa bicutan. may e-pass. dere-derecho hanggang sa magallanes. bago ko pa mapansin nasa dela rosa na pala kami.

inaantok ako. kaya naisip kong pumikit. kako ipapahinga ko na lang muna ang mga mata ko habang pinapakinggan ang palabas sa tv. wala na kong ibang alam na nangyari pagtapos nito. ang sunod ko nang alam e pagmulat ko ng mata ko, napatingin ako sa kaliwang bahagi ng bus at nakita ang LUNETA PARK! gusto kong tumawa! pag lingon ko sa kanan, nakita ko ang STA. ISABEL. anak ka ng kamote! ang layo na ng U.N. Ave. ALAY-LAKAD na naman?!?!

wala namang kaso kung maglalakad ako. yun e kung hindi pa ko male-late! e kamusta ka naman! anong petsa na!!! 6:30 ang oras ko sa trabaho. 6:50 na sa relo ko. pero advance ito ng 35 minutes. DATI! e nung isang araw kasi inadjust yung in-out clock. dinagdagan ng 10 minutes DAW! ang 35 minutes ko 25 minutes na lang! at dahil nga 6:50 na sa relo ko meron na lang akong limang minuto para lakbayin mula sta. isabel papunta ng j. bocobo st.

tumawid ako sa may kalaw kung saan may jeep na bumangga sa pwet ng isang bus na byaheng alabang. bumaba ang galit na drayber at kinumpronta ang di-nakaapak-agad-sa-prenong drayber ng jeep. hindi ko na naisip pang makiosyoso dahil nga late na ko!

lumakad akong parang kasali sa walkathon. kulang na lang kumembot kembot yung pwet ko katulad nung sa kanila. minsan di ko na rin mapigilang tumakbo. dumating ako sa harap ng in-out clock. natawa na talaga ako! dahil kahit pawisan ako kahit maaga pa, bumungad naman sakin ang oras na "6:29 am." ang pinakaastig sa lahat? ang epektibong dasal na "GOD WILL PROVIDE!"

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"NASUSUNOG ANG COURT OF APPEALS."

weh?! di nga?! isang beses pa lang ata akong nakakakita ng sunog. at dahil hindi ako makapaniwalang may sunog nga, sumunod ako sa iba kong kasama. ang role? miron syempre! nasusunog ang tuktok ng nasabing gusali. paminsan-minsan ay nakikinita namin ang apoy pero madalas binabalot ito ng makapal at maitim na usok. buti na lang at makulimlim nung mga panahong naganap ang mga pangyayari. sabi nila, umulan daw. hindi ko nakitang umulan pero salamat naman kung ganon. tulong rin yun para maapula yung apoy. nung umuwi ako. may mga tao pa rin sa labas ng gusali. kitang-kita naman, maitim ang mga pader nito. basag ang mga bintana. pero gaya ng mga sinasabi ng mga bumbero, FIRE OUT! hanggang ngayon dein ko pa rin alam kung bakit nasunog yun. makikibalita na lang siguro ako mamaya.

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pauwi. sumakay ako ng bus papuntang alabang. dun ako sumakay ng jeep pauwi. sa nasakyan kong jeep, may nakita akong apat na teenagers. teen-age muntant ninja turtles!!! tenen tenen action! turtle power! hahahahaha! pagbigyan nyo na ko, wala pa kong isip nung pinalabas ang TMNT sa tv at hindi ko ba naiintindihan ang lyrics ng kanta! ituloy na natin ang kwento. dalawa lang naman ang bida sa kwentong ito. para bang nag-group date lang sila at ang dalawa nilang kasama e mga… wala lang! nung dumating ako sa eksena, ganito ang nangyayari. bumubulong yung lalaki (itago na lang natin siya sa pangalang andoy) dun sa babae (itago na lang natin sya sa pangalang bebang). malamang hindi ko sila naririnig dahil malayo sila! maliban na lang sa mga manaka-nakang hirit nung babae na "ayoko nga!" at "tumigil ka nga jan!" at eto namang si andoy na hindi na nadala, pilit pa ring hinahawakan yung kamay ni bebang! na pilit namang tinatanggal ni bebang! para paikliin na kwento, ganyan lang ang ginagawa nila sa jeep buong biyahe! nung paliko na kami sa toll gate, (nagising na ko, oo "pumikit" ulit ako!) nakita kong naka-"interlock" na ang mga daliri nila. pero, ngunit, subalit, datapwat! ang kamay ni bebang, parang keber! parang hindi nya lang masabi kay andoy na "tigilan mo na ko! ewwww!" dein ko nga ma-gets e, kasi naman etong si bebang minsan tatawa naman pag may binubulong sa tenga nya tong si andoy. nakikiliti siguro! nyahahahaha! sabay batok sa kanila! toink toink!

ewan ko ah. inggit lang siguro ako. pero mahirap/masakit mang aminin para sa mga teenager (ako din yun dati), totoo na hindi lovelife ang dapat na prayoridad habang bata pa lang. malayo pa. marami pang darating. marami pang aalis. hanggang sa isang araw, malaman mo na lang na nakita mo na pala yung taong magtatagal… habang-buhay… nakanaman!

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ang dakilang miron… baw!

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july 21. saturday. it was a little before seven. i got up and went to the bathroom. i was still sleepy so i decided to go back to sleep. half-awake, i heard my dad knocking on my door, asking me to go to our store because my mom wanted to go to divi (i would be her substitute.) my world dimmed. i was soooo excited about the opening of cinemalaya. i had planned to go to Manila today. BUT… (there is that word again!)

i fell asleep (yet again!). i woke up because of the banging on my door. it was my sister. she figured out (i don’t know how) that i had to go to our store today. i crawled out of bed, still half-asleep. i didn’t want to ruin the whole day because my plans were ruined. i thought it would be better if i would make the most out of this situation. i went to the market (where our store was) and decided to buy something that i can cook for dinner. i ended up buying chicken.

when i got back home, my sister was still there. she asked me if i would be going to CCP on sunday. when i said yes, she asked who i’d go with. i said, "ako lang." i was about to eat my lunch when i saw this letter clipped on the plastic bag with my food in it. it read "yayain mo si … manood ng indie films sa cinemalaya. mas masaya manood pag kasama mu bestfriend mu. sana magkasya ito khit isang film lang. enjoy kayo." enclosed in the letter is a 500-peso bill. i couldn’t believe my eyes! it felt as if my eyeballs wanted to pop out of its sockets to take a closer look! oh sure! it was just another 500-peso bill! pfft! so what’s the big [bleeping] deal?! well, this is God’s never ending GRACE! besides, i cannot afford to bring someone with me. with this money, i can actually invite someone without having to fear that they’d say no because they got no money to pay for the movie. i can say-slash-text them - all caps - "IT’S FREE!!!"

it didn’t take me another second to text my bestfriend. hours passed. what an upset! she wasn’t replying. i texted another friend. well, she didn’t reply as well. i texted yet another friend. she was the one who first introduced me to cinemalaya. she happened to be sick so she technically can’t come. hmm… who else?! as far as i’m concerned, my discipler has a bake sale on sunday. leave her out. college friends? we had scheduled our meeting for next saturday. cross out. my other bestfriend? sunday is family day. strikethrough!

i must admit that it was pretty disappointing. i had a 500-peso bill to buy off a friend and convince him/her to go with me but all the people i can think of is just NOT AVAILABLE. hate it! hate it! hate it!

remorse follows. i should have never invited anybody in the first place! it was just too painful to be rejected (take note: not just once and not just twice!). truth be told, i had planned to go with, well, myself. just a day out with no one but me. but all these came up, the hope of having someone come with me just sparkled and somehow grew into a flame! UNTIL… (well there is that word too…)

i felt somewhat devalued. i felt unimportant. it felt as if i didn’t really have anybody. you know? someone you can invite on the same day, someone who’d drop everything and say "hey, i’d love to go with you", someone you can "drag" just about anywhere and still have a great time! well, i don’t know about you. but in my life, that person would have to be ME… as in just ME.. (or so i would just like to think…)

i don’t really mind doing things alone. i don’t really mind eating a meal alone. i don’t really mind hanging out somewhere alone. i don’t really mind watching a movie alone. i guess what made this a big deal was that i was given that chance to take someone with me. i just failed to bring someone along.

i didn’t want to let my disappointment ruin the what-could-possibly-be-a-great day so when i woke up this morning (june 22, sunday) i ate my breakfast, took a bath and put on some clothes. I WAS UP AND READY TO GO! i figured, i had been waiting for this since last year! i had been planning this since last month and what? you expect me to throw everything away because i have to go with myself?! NO WAY! i’m going! and i’m going to have fun!

AND THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT I DID!

because if you want to get in the water, dive! if you want to love, fall! if you want something, get it! if you want to be somewhere, go! NO EXCUSES, NO BUTS, NO MAYBES, NO IF-THENS. JUST GO! JUST DO IT! BECAUSE ONCE YOU HOLD BACK, YOU WILL LOSE.

chances, they don’t often come twice.

choose. do. be responsible. period.
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june 20. friday. end of the week (but not technically) for me at work. our supervisor asked me if i would be joining them for dinner (YANA invited us to eat out). guess where. DAMPA!!! (the one somewhere in Macapagal). my reply? that would be a "YES!" with a goofy smile!

my first trip to DAMPA happened during my college years (when? i don’t really remember). a good friend of mine decided to celebrate her birthday there. argh! GREAT CHOICE!

it was a little before six when we got ready to go to Macapagal. we waited and waited for a taxi. too bad they got passengers already. well, nothing unusual. i mean, it’s really hard to get a taxi there. besides the fact that it was friday, it was  also rush hour. after about thirty minutes of waiting, finally a taxi pulled over and agreed to take us to Macapagal. i was with three of my colleagues. others stayed behind to wait for another cab. (there were 13 of us and we can’t possibly fit in one cab of course! lol)

on our way there, i can’t help but notice the breath-taking sunset at Baywalk. Argh! i miss Baywalk! we took a right turn at CCP complex (there was supposed to be a shortcut there BUT the road was still blocked! so we had to make a U-turn back to Roxas.) we passed by CCP of course! it was the opening of the Cinemalaya Film Festival! I’m really really excited! there was a lone dancer atop the entrance with her whole body including her skimpy clothes painted in sheer gold. astig! she looked sooo amazing! hmmm… i wonder. how much is her talent fee? (hahaha!)

when finally we reached our destination, we paid the cab a hundred and fifty. they said we should’ve paid the driver less but what’s done is done. besides i thought we went through that much traffic and his taxi was actually comfortable compared to others! but hey, what do i know, right?

and yes! the food was finally served!!! PRAISE THE LORD! it was just one seafood dish after another! truly, there are lots of
fishes in the sea! as a matter of fact, one of them is on my plate —
cooked to perfection and ready for the taking! hahaha! ANG SARAP TALAGA!!! sinigang sa miso, shrimp, crab, calamares, tahong! arghhh!!! which one first?!

i basically started with the sinigang. i think it was soooo amazingly flavorful! love it! love it! especially the fact that they served it (and i tasted it) while it was still steaming hot. love it! i didn’t eat rice with the other dishes. i figured it would be easier for me if i wouldn’t because it would only make me feel like i am already full. i wanted to try most of the dishes so i tried hard not to drink some soda or eat too much of one dish. the shrimp was just great! i love the fact that it was a little spicy but at the same time the spice was balanced and complimented by a sweet flavor. love it! love it! they also served baked tahong. it was okay (for me). well hey! forgive me, i am not really a fan of tahong dishes. what really blew me that night was the calamares! alright so it was just fried squid! but man! it was delicious! now i am being biased. but what can i do? i can’t help it! i love calamares! i just can’t help dipping and then popping on my mouth one after the other! it was delicious! argghh! love it! love it! love it!

the night finally ended with me drinking my pepsi (argh! they don’t have coke there! too bad!) but it was alright! being biased, i still think my night could have been beyond perfect with a glass of coke! exaggeration.

i don’t know how to say it here. i don’t know how to describe the excruciating, long walk that we had that night. i mean, literally, we walked from the place where we ate to the Libertad station of LRT!!! ALAY-LAKAD?!?!?! it was beyond brutal! at first i didn’t feel it but as we walked and walked some more, i started feeling pain somewhere in my stomach (i can’t really say where, it was too painful for me to distinguish!) and i didn’t want to walk anymore but we were half-way there already so i didn’t really have that much choice. i was also worried that i would have a hard time getting a ride home because it was past nine already. if i’d still go to Lawton, there would be no trip to Pacita there anymore. i would probably end up going back outside the terminal to look for a bus to Alabang — which i’m sure would take ten years just waiting for other passengers. thank God there is another bus terminal at buendia. i took the bus to Pacita. i was actually lucky! when i got on the bus, it then took off. not surprisingly, i slept on my way home (after texting and paying for my fare). by the time i woke up, i didn’t actually know where i was. when i looked back, i saw a sign. "PURE GOLD" it read. i had to take another jeepney ride back. i was that sleepy!

i was actually surprised because i got home a little before quarter to eleven. it wasn’t traffic, i guess. argh! a journey… a long one, i should say. from the amazing and the delectable to the excruciating and the miserable and back! one thing i am certain about… God was with me all the while! and that in itself would make any journey an absolute keeper!
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"it’s better to remain silent and thought a fool than to open your mouth and prove it."
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"When God becomes your wave, you won’t need that much paddling."
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"makasarili daw ako. hindi ko raw iniisip kung anong nararamdaman nya. hindi ko raw iniisip ang mga tao sa paligid ko. basta masaya ako, wala nang pakialamanan. ngayon na binabanggit nya sakin to, nararamdaman kong may gusto syang ipagawa sakin — bagay na makakapagpasaya sa kanya, bagay na hindi makakasakit sa kanya. may tanong lang ako, sino ngayon ang makasarili?"
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OMG! nakakaloka! i was on my way na nga to Alabang kanina when my cellphone made-beep-beep. it was my discipler, si ate weng. sabi sa message nya, "i’ll see you in a while." what?!?! can you make that ulit nga please. kase naman, as i remember, the last time we made usap, we agreed na we will make-kita each other ulit tuesday next week. e hello! it’s monday pa lang kea! so i made taka sobra! i thought tuloy na it’s tuesday na today. then what’s so ka-bigla bigla pa e nung nagtext si sis! as in OMG! she was asking me "wer ka na?" e most of the time, if she makes tanong this question, it means na she wants us to make kita or something. i miss her nga so badly na kase it’s been a long while nung last kameng magkita e. so there i was, in a bus to Alabang, and i can’t make a decision. i was so nalilito kase i want to see them both! if i would say no to Lucy, baka after ten years na ulit kame magkita! heller! and ate weng naman was already at our meeting place. so i said yes to both of them. besides i want them to meet naman na each other. and i thought maybe God wanted them to meet and this is the opportunity na for that deba?! so there i was making them text na. kaso it was sooooo soooo traffic sa Alabang! buti pa sa sucat hindi maxado traffic! when i got there, i saw this rainbow! grabe! it’s soooo ganda talaga! the last pala na i saw a rainbow was january 15th! and the rainbow i kita that time was talagang buo, you know? as in defined yung ends ng rainbow! it was picture-perfect but im sorry pooorita ang lola mo kaya ayan i don’t have a kuha of that picture-perfect nga sana na shot! the rainbow i made kita today was different, it wasn’t picture-perfect but it was a beauty still. it’s soooo ganda talaga! when ate weng, lucy and i were there already drinking our kape, bez texted me naman! OMG! he was asking me where i was! it was as good as saying "meet tayo!" so there i told him na i was with lucy nga! and i wanted him to meet my discipler na rin! awww! it’s sooooo nice talaga! this is what i would love to call "divine intervention." the moment was perfect in itself — and it all happened without an effort! God just blessed us sooooo much today and i still see myself with a goofy smile even right now as i am writing this. aww… i miss you all too much. basta basta! sana this would happen again sa ibang time. i really really hope so!
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it was but eight in the evening when i found myself cuddling my pillow trying to get some sleep. My sister kept asking if i would join them for supper but i just can’t find the urge to get up and eat. the next thing i know, it was half past two in the wee hours of the morning. when i got out of bed, i realized that i didn’t have anything to wear to work. God is so gracious. He actually gave me enough time to sleep and enough time to wash my clothes (something that i planned to do during the weekend but failed to accomplish). being me, i was skeptic about actually washing every piece of clothing that i had to wash. the funny thing was though it was only three in the morning, i was already thinking clearly. if i don’t do this now, i would have to make time for it later (or tomorrow or the day after that) so might as well do it now. i figured God was actually giving me time to do this. He actually gave me more than enough time to wash my clothes (although in the weirdest fashion — hello! it’s only three in the morning!). if i would be skeptic thinking that i am not going to be able to finish washing my clothes in time, then i am most probably right. if i really want to finish on time, i have to focus. i have to "think positive." i could actually say right now that God, being the wonderful Father that He is to me, gave me enough strength to accomplish my task. Not a minute did i feel sleepy during the process. what amazes me is that i actually finished before five o’clock. i was able to sleep for another 45 minutes and i was not late for work! and although the whole day was draining, here i am (i think this is actually caffeine doing it’s work on me) writing about this.
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argh! i should think positive. think positive. think positive. i can do anything and everything through Christ who strengthens me.
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kamusta naman?! alas singko na ko umalis sa clinic para umuwi. umuulan pa ah! mahina lang pero nagbabadyang biglang lumakas. ganitong-ganito yung nangyari nung umuwi kami ni mamuchi at bigla kaming inulan! naligo noon yung chuck taylor sa ulan kaya ayan napilitan (napilitan daw?!) akong bumili ng "rubber" shoes. kanina hindi naman naligo yung sapatos ko, nagpaulan lang ng konti.

ayoko ng traffic kaya naisipan kong dumaan na lang ng alabang. tutal naman e mas mura yung pamasahe pag dun ako dumaan (kuripot!). nung nasa bus na ko, napansin kong mainit. HELLO! hindi ito aircon so malamang mainit! e nakababa pa yung mga bintana kasi naman umuulan. nung una iniisip kong magpaypay muna at least pag dating namin ng skyway e hindi na masyadong mainit. e kaso mo wa epek! mainit talaga! hindi ko kinayanan kaya naisip kong itulog na lang.

nang idilat ko ang mga mata ko, parang ang gulo ng paligid! akala ko naman bababa na kami dahil nasa alabang na. e kaso mo naman, dahil nga nakababa yung mga bintana at dahil malakas ang ulan hindi ko makita kung nasaang parte na ba kami ng pilipinas! gusto ko nga sanang isipin kaninang sumobra ako ng tulog at papunta na kami ng calamba! hehehehe! tumingin-tingin ako sa labas. inaaninag ang hindi-ko-naman-maaninag na paligid! salamat na lang sa nakita kong sign ng "SM BICUTAN!!!!" ANAK NG TINAPAY! nakatulog na ko’t lahat e nasa bicutan pa lang kami! take note traffic pa nitong mga panahong to ah! ayokong mabadtrip kaya napagisip-isip kong matulog na lang ulit. gumising ako, traffic pa rin. yung mga tao sa paligid ko sinasabing baha na raw! ANO?! BAHA NA?!!? kaya ba hindi gumagalaw ang mga sasakyan?!?! pero ayokong mag-alala, kaya naisip kong matulog na lang ulit.

dumating kami sa alabang. buo pa naman ako. inaantok. basa ng pawis (e pano ang init init!). baha raw. tumingin ako sa labas. baha nga! hindi naman pwedeng magswimming sa baha ang rubber shoes ko dahil wala na kong ibang masusuot pa para bukas. gusto ko sanang matulog ulit pero hello! nasa alabang na kami. nakinig na lang ako sa air supply hits ni manong driver. kamusta naman at tinugtog pa ang paborito kong "i’m all out of love, i’m so lost without you"  habang nasa gitna kami ng nakakalokang traffic, isama mo na rin ang senti mode na dala ng ulan. NYAKS! at mas kamusta naman ang "OH MY LOVE…. MY DARLING… I’VE HUNGERED FOR YOUR TOUCH…" ahihihihi!

bumaba ako at dahan-dahan binagtas ang puno-ng-taong kalye ng alabang. wala nang masakyang jeep papunta samin. maraming tao ang nakapetix sa ilalim ng mga payong nila at ang iba naman e feel na feel ang paliligo sa ambon. MAGPAYONG NGA KAYO! sa mga panahon ngayon, bawal magkasakit! (hehehehe! commercial?!?!) naisip kong kumain na lang muna tutal wala rin naman akong masakyan pauwi.

kumain ako sa mcdo. napaupo pa ako dun sa lugar kung saan kami umupo dati nung isa kong kaibigan. namiss ko naman sya bigla. hindi ko na rin kasi sya nakikita ngayon. hindi na katulad ng dati na isang yaya lang, ayos na. walang drawing pag kaming dalawa. parating pag may nagyaya, nagkakatotoo. nakakamiss yung dating samahan. na hindi ko alam kung san na napunta ngayon. buti nagkaroon kami ng pagkakataon para magkasama at magkakilala. yung mahabang usapan, tungkol sa pinakawalang kwentang bagay hanggang sa mga importante. lahat ng pangarap. plano. o kung anong gustong sabihin. o kung saan gustong pumunta. o kung anong balak gawin. basta lahat totoo. at para sa maraming natutunan, tungkol man sa buhay o sa mga kalokohan, maraming salamat.

kung may nagbago man o magbabago pa, wala nang dapat paghinayangan o ikalungkot dahil naging bahagi ka ng buhay ko minsan sa isang noon.
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When dreaming I’m guided through another world
Time and time again
At sunrise I fight to stay asleep
‘Cause I don’t want to leave the comfort of this place
‘Cause there’s a hunger, a longing to escape
From the life I live when I’m awake
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