About A Girl

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december 31, 2007
aba! first time to ah.
first cut is the deepest (he he he!)
unang beses kong mahiwa sa tana ng pagluluto ko.
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hindi naman sa masokista ako no. at mas lalong hindi ko rin naman gustong maulit to. pero kahit na nasugatan ako, willing pa rin akong humawak ng can opener at magbukas ng de lata. o kahit ng kutsilyo para maghiwa ng lulutuin. dahil masaya ako pag nagluluto ako. pag natutuwa yung mga nakakatikim ng luto ko. pag naririnig kong masarap. ayyy! langit!!!
remembrance to. na nawa e hindi ako tatanga tanga next time. at para na rin ipaalala sakin kung gano ko kagustong magluto.
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pero pramis masakit sya! huhuhuhu!
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maligayang bagong taon sa inyong lahat!

nagiisip pa rin ng positibo ;p
jancarli
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it’s 9 am. december 31, 2007.

fifteen hours before another year unfolds.

i have so much to be thankful for this year. pero parati naman diba? i guess we all have our share of the good and the bad side of life. but the more i think of it, i realize that the bad side of life is not actually the end but is only the journey towards the good side. i don’t want to ever believe that when i am in the dumps, it’s game over. it’s not like that. no matter what you say whenever you get hit, it still stands true that that which does not kill you will only make you stronger and that which actually kill you will only set you free. so you see, there’s no losing in life. losers are made because they choose not to see the end of the road.

but it’s hard every single time. to keep a positive thought. to hold on to a hopeful soul. to believe in the good of every single thing. and that’s okay. to doubt. to make mistakes. to lose. to be utterly human. but if and when you fall, do not forget that humans can fly too. you just have to know where your wings are.

there will come a point in life when you will say that you have lost yourself. i have and sooner or later will too. sometimes, i don’t know who i am. i don’t know what i want. maybe it’s stress. maybe it’s envy. maybe it’s transformation. but whatever it may be, it’s a process. no matter how dark it may seem to be, somehow (you and) i will get out of this pit and find light again.

do not limit yourself or close yourself to the world. open your eyes and unravel the beauty that is in front of you. do not underestimate the power of your mind and body. for the right reasons, just do it. stop holding back. be insanely human.

thinking positive.
jancarli

> hmmm, i guess mamaya na ko magrereminisce at magkkwento. got a lot to do.

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december 21, 2007
mula sa isang tumatambay lang din na katulad ko
misteryo pa rin sya
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good morning!it’s christmas!!! it’s christmas!!!

how was your noche buena? mine was spectacular! an answered prayer! sabi ko kasi kahapon [...sana magka-variety na sa aking menu for christmas...] guess what? may nadagdag kahit paano! besides the usual spaghetti and chicken and crema de fruita and fruit salad, we prepared nacho chips, hotdogs and marshmallows and a bowl of fruits! teka! ano kayang iniisip ko kahapon? cguro talagang hindi ako nagiisip kasi naman puro fruits na yung handa namin!

i have always been a fan of nachos! lalo na yung nachos at dip sa taco bell! ayyy langit!!! for last night, pumunta ako sa SM Tunasan Hypermarket [..nagppromote???...] to buy the ingredients that i needed. first of all, nacho chips! akala ko pa nung una, walang nacho chips dun sa hypermarket. pero kailangan lang pala talagang maghanap! aba! test of patience din pala sa supermarket! hmmmm…. tapos dun na rin ako bumili ng cabbage [in place of lettuce hehehe!], cheese, pizza sauce, pork&beans, tomatoes! love ko yung tomatoes nila, it’s soooo fresh!!! cabbage… errr, not for nachos siguro. [note to self. next time, go for the original ingredient! ;p]. pizza sauce? di ako masyadong pinaligaya nito pero ok din na meron. for me na mahilig sa matamis, siguro pwdeng magdagdag ng sugar para mabawasan ang asim ng pizza sauce or better yet gumamit na lang ng filipino style na spaghetti sauce! cheese!!! im crazy about this one! cheese at nacho chips! that’s how i usually like it! kaya the best pa rin ang taco bell nachos!

birthday party ito?! oo birthday party nga! at dahil birthday party kunyari ito [surely this is not the exact date Christ was born but let's not discuss that...ayt?] we also had hotdogs and marshmallows! sayang walang piña o kahit anong prutas na pwedeng dikitan ng stick nung hotdogs! anyway, masarap pa rin sya! note: gumamit ng cheesedogs! mas masarap toits! hehehe! (para kay deds, kung mababasa mo to… SAVE THE BABIES!!!)

fruits. wala lang. nakakita kasi ako ng melon sa hypermarket. nag-crave. ayun! it’s just a bowl of fruits. the fruits included. melon, apples, pears and grapes. (c deds, dinagdagan ng oranges.) that’s it! sana pala bumili ako ng kiwi! para naman matikman ko na yun! basta… next time! note: contrary to what my dad thinks, the fruits and veges that i bought from the supermarket are actually fresh! pero syempre kailangan pa ring piliin kung ano yung bibilhin mo. there are products there na hindi na fresh lalo na sa vege section. ;p

that’s it! ambilis talaga ng sagot sa aking prayer. anyway, it’s not the food nor the gifts nor the simbang gabi and the wish that comes with it that is important. it’s all the more important to realize that the true meaning of Christmas roots back to thousand years ago when our Savior and Lord was born. His unending grace and overflowing love for us is the reason why He came. He saved you and me. all the more reason to give Him praise and thanks. Glory to You, O Lord. Maraming Salamat po sa lahat.

so have an ecstatic Christmas everyone! may you days be forever filled with love not just for your Savior but for the people around you. have a good one!!!

Maligayang Pasko sa lahat!!!

heads up guys! think positive!
jancarli

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good morning everyone! it’s a little over nine in the morning and i just got up! i have soooo much to do today (considering that i didn’t wash my clothes yesterday and that i didn’t really clean the house hehehe!). i still have to cook our food for tonight. i guess that’s all that i’ll be doing today! i know the rest of the world would be busy today. i hope you’ll all have a good time in prep for christmas! have a good one!

p.s
i watched i am legend last night. it was amazing! well, don’t get your hopes up. it almost reminded me of how plots in indie films are. i don’t think that ‘i am legend’ is your typical boy flick. it may seem hard to watch at first because you are just looking at one character (but i was looking at will smith so i loved it anyway!) i love it and hate it at the same time because sam died! he he he! spoiler there for you! and another person died. hahahaha! i love doing this! anyway, you may want to watch it. but this comes with the warning that this movie is not the typical everyday movie that we see in cinemas. para maiba naman, watch it! gotta love will smith! ;p

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happy holidays!!! anyway, ima greet ya’ll tomorrow again! and i’m pretty sure that i’ll be back later! c ya later alligator! wahahahaha! have a nice day everyone! keep yer heads up!

think positive!
jancarli

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it’s december 23. why am i not so excited? hahaha!

things are not looking up for me. but i don’t want to worry. God will provide. hehehe!

waaah!
so toxic ako ulit bukas! magluluto for noche buena! haay same old, same
old. sana next year magka-variety na sa christmas menu ko! i hope so!
hmmm… magkatotoo kaya to. yoko na magplano na lang… huhuhu!

we
had our christmas party last friday! it was soooo fun! i took a lot of
pictures, xmpre! …eto yung nagparealize sakin kung anong gusto kong
gift for myself sa christmas… charger ng battery! siraulo ko pala
noh! dapat yun na lang nilagay ko sa wish list ko. pero sabagay, busy
na kasi sa lab last week kaya wala na rin akong time maghanap ng
ipapabili. pero binigyan naman ako ng money nung nakabunot sakin.
hehehehe! i’ll buy my gift na lang. at least mapipili ko pa!

we
ate at Friday’s! sarap!!! nag-iba ko ng order, jack daniel’s chicken
and shrimp with corn and rice pilaf. i liked the rice pilaf. bago sa
malungkot kong taste buds hehehehe! pero wala pa rin talagang tatalo sa
baby back ribs nila! at ang fries… mmm! langit!!!

after dinner,
nag-ktv kami! saya!!! game lahat kumanta! nakakatawa din yung boys!
"katawan! katawan! ingatan ang inyong katawan!" hahahahah! i think
everyone enjoyed that night. although hindi nakasama si ma’am tines
dahil aalis ata sya. sayang. i wanted to hear her sing.

i slept
kela ate she ulit. sobrang kahiya sa mom nya. i didn’t know her mom was
there. but then i had no choice whatsoever because i had nowhere to
sleep. hmmm which led me to the idea na next time… mag hotel na lang!
just for the experience. well, got to save money for that too. oh well,
matagal pa naman siguro bago maulit ulit lahat yun. but it was sooooo
fun! ang saya saya ko! thank you te she. nahiya talaga ko! hahaha! but
the people there are sooo accommodating! maraming salamat po sa inyo!

the
following day. blessa and i went to trinoma. sayang wla si reigna.
hindi nya ko nirereplyan!!! hmp! guess she’s still busy. nagkape lang.
at nagkwentuhan! i wanted to look around and take pictures. kaso
masakit yung paa ko tska hindi kasi ako nakarubber shoes. kamusta naman
kasi yung high-heeled kong sandals! anyway, next time. maybe next
year… i would definitely go there again! definitely!

hmmm…
reb told me about torrent. matagal na xa pero ngayon ko lang nalaman.
haaay! nakakabilib talaga yung lalaking yun! kung anik-anik ang
nalalaman! galing talaga! i don’t know much about it…YET! but we’re
getting there… it’s okay to take baby steps to the goal naman e.
hehehehe! my first movie na torrent… I AM LEGEND!! i love will smith.
i just do. ;p

i miss my friends already! but all i want to do is
just lie on my bed and sleep all day! haaay! how i wish i can do this
for two straight days without anybody complaining na petix ako!
hahahaha!

since malapit na ang new year. i was "PLANNING" to
clean up my room a bit. and like the original plan, i am reconsidering
the black ceiling. as in BLACK! itim at hindi lang basta madilim.
although, i am having difficulties with the lighting. i want to add
some more light, parang yung maliliit lang na spotlight PERO wala pa
rin akong alam sa mga electric churvabels na yan! so all plans…
PENDING! but the black ceiling is definitely being reconsidered. buti
na lang pala at may ace hardware na sa SM tunasan! hindi ko na
kailangan pang magpakatoxic at pumunta sa ace hardware sa festival just
to buy paint.

at ayoko munang magisip for january. i just want
to enjoy my vacation. kahit saglit lang tong bakasyon na to, dapat ko
rin namang sulitin diba? diba? hehehhe!

happy holidays! sa makakabasa nito heheheh! and i miss you my dear void!

back to ranting mode again…
jancarli

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wala lang! unti-unti na ulit nagkakakulay ang mundo ko. hahaha!

nakakatawa minsan. habang naiingit yung isang tao sa isa pang nilalang, hindi nya alam na yung nilalang na yun e naiinggit din pala sa kanya. tsktsktsk! kanya kanyang opinyon lang talaga yan e. minsan kung ano yung nakikita mo sa iba, yun ang gusto mo. pero ang hindi mo napapansin, may mga bagay na meron ka na hinihiling ng ibang tao na meron din sila. ano ba inggitan? kailangan ba talaga laging mas magaling ang lolo ko sa lolo mo? haay…

congrats pala kay lucy. kasi nanalo sya sa ms.mcm? hehehehe! sayang naiwan yung picture mo sa starbuko! ganda pa naman! pipicture-an na lang kita next time hehehehe!

tejen tagaytay tayo! kelangan eto matuloy na talaga ah! kasi naman e…. basta kahit tayong dalawa lang dapat matuloy na to!

bez kaw nalang dein ko nalilibre… pano ba yan? di mo na maeexperience yung first 13th month ko hahahaha!

minsan madilim yung paligid kahit matindi pa ang sikat ng araw. pero hindi naman ibig sabihin non na parati nalang magiging malungkot ang panahon. wala naman yan sa kung gaano katagal ang tag-ulan at tag-araw. pero nasa kung paano mo palilipasin ang bawat panahon… umuulan man o umaaraw.

ayoko na ring mag-isip masyado. buti na lang tapos na yung nanonoxic na xmas party. at maraming salamat kay itad na walang kupas pa ring sumayaw. hayup ka ang galing mong rumaket! hehehehe! at salamat din kay ateshe sa pagkupkop sakin nung gabing wala akong matulugan heheheh!

bukas may pasok na naman ako!!!! waaahahhh!!!! basta basta! naeexcite na kong magnew year!! heheheh! lapit na talaga!!!!

nagpunta ko ng sm kanina. at nakakita kami ng fireworks! naeexcite na talaga ko sa new year. bagong simula na naman to! sana… basta! hehehe!

hindi ko ma-feel na pasko na! kailangan pa atang mag-effort pa ko! kaya eto. my favorite christmas song. hahahah! enjoy!

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minsan gusto ko itanong kung anong kapangyarihang dulot ng taning sayo.

                                  may kaibahan ba…

sa kung paano kang nabubuhay sa bawat araw 
            at kung paano kang nagdadasal sa bawat gabi?

kung walang kasiguraduhan              ang bawat segundong lilipas,
            mas magiging taimtim ba ang bawat pangungusap?
mas magiging bukod-tangi ba ang bawat sandali?
                         mas magiging malalim ba ang bawat pag-ibig?
                         mas magiging masaya ba ang bawat patak ng luha?

kung malalaman kong bilang na ang mga araw,
                                                         matututunan ko ba
                                    kung paano mabuhay?
             matututunan ko ba
                           kung paanong pakawalan ang nakaraan…
      ang mga hindi na babalik pa?

nakakapagod magalit.

nakakainip nang magtampo.

nakakasuka nang maghintay…
                                                   para saan at para kanino.

ilang araw pa ang lilipas
                          para malaman ko ang halaga ng bawat pagsikat ng araw?
            na sa pag gising ko sa umaga,
            magkakaroon ako ng dahilan para bumangon.

ilang araw pa?

bago ko malaman na wala akong dapat ikagalit…
ilang araw pa?

                                      bago ko matutunan kung paano magpasalamat…
                                      dahil pagod na kong maghintay ng sagot.
                                      dahil nahihirapan na kong hindi makakita.
                                      ilang araw pa?

bago ko malamang hindi ko pala malalaman ang mga sagot.
o na wala palang sagot.
na naghihintay ako sa wala.

ilang gabi pa?

ilang gabi pa ang lilipas?

                              gusto ko nang mabuhay…
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sup bloggers! tagal ko ring nawala. busy? siguro. ano na bang bago?

december na!!!!!!!!! im not that excited bout christmas! if you’re wondering why, well malamig pa rin ang pasko ko. hahahaha! but im soooo much excited about the NEW YEAR!!! yup! NEW YEAR!!!!!! bagong taon na!!!!! ibig sabihin din non, malapit na ang birthday ko! hahaha! pero seriously, naeexcite ako sa pag-iisip ng bagong simula. parang gusto kong magplano ng walang hanggan! mag-isip ng mga magandang gawin! mag-isip ng mapagkakaabalahan! mag-isip ng bagong raket! hahaha! parang sa new year ko nakikita yung second chance. yung restart. yung re-live. yung re-plenish. yung re-vitalize. yung lahat ng re-dotdotdot!

enough bout that. pero naeexcite talaga ako!!! gusto ko sanang magpakalasing sa buena noche hahaha! wishful thinking! sana lang by the time na new year na nga e wala akong sakit! malas yun! hahahah!

marami nang nangyari, marami na ring bago. gaya ng SM Tunasan! nag-open sya last november 16 pa. oo! may biglang tumubong SM sa maliit na MUNTI-nlupa! akalain mo nga naman na sa isang napakaliit na lugar ay may apat na malalaking mall! metropolis, Alabang Town Center, Festival Supermall (ang aking paboritong second home!) at ngayon ang SM Tunasan. (lima pala ang mall dun kung gusto nyong isama ang llanas na hindi ko alam ang spelling at hindi ko pa napupuntahan!).

kahit na dalawang floors lang ang SM Tunasan, meron namang apat na sinehan dun. pero hindi pa ko nakakapanood don hehehe! marami ding food chains don. at may mga salon din. may hardware. may computer shop. may grocery pa! at isa pa nandon din ang isa sa mga paborito kong JUICE AVENUE! masarap don! hindi mo maiintindihan yung lasa pero masarap! labo ko! basta masarap don!

bout my friend ryan. well MIA na sya ngayon. sumakay na ng cruise liner at tumulak patungong europa. isa na syang opisyal na bayani ng bagong panahon… (in short OFW!) nakakabilib! dahil sya, alam nya kung anong gusto nya at masyado syang creative at resourceful! dahil alam nya rin kung pano pupuntahan ang mga pangarap nya. astig talaga! well, mamimiss ko sya. hindi ko na sya makakasamang tumayo sa biyaheng lawton… ;(

hindi nga pala ako nakapunta sa PAMET convention. my very first sana pero dahil sa mga circumstances (???) hehehe! hindi ako nakapunta. i was sick that time. sick and tired! hahahaha! i was writing articles. buti na lang dumating ang aking friend na si reb para tumulong sa pagsusulat! ano na lang ang gagawin ko kung hindi siya dumating! although late na kong natapos, my goodness! 6pm na ko natapos. deadline ko dapat e 3pm (na naextend ng 4pm) pero dahil nasusuka na ko sa pagsusulat e sobrang bagal ko na nung hapon. ikaw ba naman ang magtype ng twelve straight hours!

so far so good. ang mga "plano" ko in prep for 2008 e nasusunod naman. pero syempre konti palang yung plano. in short, di pa buo! and i got 3 weeks to finish it. tsktsktsk!

i got new pics. xmpre edited pa rin! gustong gusto ko talaga pag edited ang picture. pero xmpre may mga pictures na wala nang pageedit pang kailangan. breath-taking!
ayun! sabi ko maraming nangyari… pero wala na kong maisulat. sa sobrang dami wala na kong maikwento hahaha!

i watched hitman with jen and leo. i miss them sooo much! libre pala to ni bes! all the more masarap yung food sa kfc! hahahaha! pati yung movie maganda yung action scenes!

at showing na rin ang BATANES. hindi ko pinapansin tong movie na to nung una. kasi hindi ko maisip kung panong si ken zhu (ng f4) e nahalo sa eksena hahahaha! pero nung nalaman kong adolfo alix jr pala tong movie na to, gusto ko nang manood! hahahaha! anyway, mamaya ko pa naman panonoorin to.

sasayaw pala kami sa christmas party ng clinic. nung una, hinayaan ko nang yung mga ka-group ko ang magasikaso, pero nung nalaman kong sasayaw kami ng sexy (Lord wag naman!) e naisip ko agad si ITAD. shet! i underestimated him. ANG GALING NYANG MAGTURO SOBRA! at magaling pa rin syang sumayaw! kahit dati pa naman di ba! hahaha! nakakatawa pa rin sya. gago pa rin! hahahaha! peace tad!

ayun lang naman, im still feeling sick. parang sisipunin ata ako! sinisipon na pala ko ahahahah! walangya yang n95 na mask na yan! kaya ako laging sinisipon dahil jan sa mask na yan e! hehehe!

ayun, namiss ko lang talagang magblog. may mga time na gusto ko na sanang magpost pero walang time, tapos mga 4 days din ata kaming walang internet dahil may problema sa connection. tagal na ring walang matinong post dito (as if meron talaga?!?!) heheheh! so there! magandang umaga sa lahat! have a good one!
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