About A Girl

.nyt bud!

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hey bud! kamusta?

nagpunta na ko ng divi. ayos no?! wala akong kasama, pate! takot na takot ako nasa clinic palang ako. umaga pa nga lang iniisip ko na kung tutuloy pa ba ko? as if namang papatayin ako sa divisoria di ba? hehehe! natatakot lang tlga siguro akong pumunta don mag-isa.. at kanina, dahil hindi natuloy yung sked ko sa dentista e naisip kong tumuloy na. hindi naman umuulan. may pera naman ako. yun nga lang, hindi ko sigurado yung pupuntahan ko. may tour guide kasi parati pag nagagawi ako don. at kamusta naman ang mga kalye at eskinita don! not to mention ang mga stalls at ang mga pasilyo! good luck!

anyway, nakalabas naman din ako ng buhay. bumili ako ng maraming maraming laruan! hehehe! at hindi naman ako naligaw! mabilis lang ang byahe. di mashadong nakakapagod. saya ko!!!!! grabeeeee!!!! at least may napupuntahan akong bagong lugar. heheheh!

bukas baka mag-ot ako. umuwi kasi ako ng maaga kanina. hehehe! tapos tambay nalang siguro. magtutuos pa kami ni louis begley. sana sa sbx ulit. or pwede rin sa kahit sang kapihan sa rob. para maiba naman. o kung hindi e di kahit san na lang. kahit sa bahay pwede rin.

may gusto akong basahin na isa pa. yung twilight. ginawa kasi nilang movie yon. sabi ni ate michelle, maganda yung libro. at naniniwala naman ako sa kanya. ehehehe! pag natapos ko nalang siguro si begley. gusto ko rin ng paulo coelho. malaman ko man lang kung bakit nagdecide si veronika na mamatay. hehehe! o kaya nicholas sparks. basta bahala na.

basta ngayon, matutulog na ko ulit hehehe! kasi naman muntikan na naman akong ma-late kanina. nakakahiya ako pa man din yung may hawak ng susi!

all in all, it was a great day for me.
miss kita bud. miss ko na din si blessa. pati si irene. pati si lucy. pati si jen. hu hu hu hu!

nytnyt my dear. :-*

You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch it now … here he comes!

He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentleman
Like you imagined when you were young

Can we climb this mountain
I don’t know
Higher now than ever before
I know we can make it if we take it slow
Let’s take it easy
Easy now, watch it go

We’re burning down the highway skyline
On the back of a hurricane that started turning
When you were young
When you were young

And sometimes you close your eyes
and see the place where you used to live
When you were young

They say the devil’s water, it ain’t so sweet
You don’t have to drink right now
But you can dip your feet
Every once in a little while

You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch it now here he comes

He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentleman
Like you imagined when you were young
(He talks like a gentlemen, like you imagined when)
When you were young

I said he doesn’t look a thing like Jesus
He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus
But more than you’ll ever know

… wala lang! gusto ko lang kumanta. love this song so much! it’s one of those songs that just grew on me. love it love it!

i put off having to go to DV today and decided i should go there tomorrow. the thing is i’m scared as hell to go there alone. baka mawala ako!!!!!

anyway, duty ulit bukas. i hope everything will turn out to be okay. wala e kulang kami bukas. nagiisip pa kong mag-undertime. i wish! at least i’m thinking of doing it on a Monday. hindi naman siguro super toxic bukas. i hope! asa pa ko! hehehe!

i’m gonna watch the secret life of bees. hmmm… no comment.

nanood ako ng flushed away! arggghhh! hugh jackman and kate winslet was great! the story was great! the lines were great! and the humor, galing! it made my day. period!

gnyt my dear.
ay nakalimutan ko palang sabihin na may tumutubong garden sa bahay namin. how i wish pwede ko silang ilagay sa terrace. kaso lang baka madehydrate sila don. kaya sa baba nalang sila. Lord, sana po mabuhay sila ng matagal. he he he!

just tired.

i went to my newfound hiding place last friday not realizing that i had just gone there that very week on a Monday. I guess I like it there. It’s a short walk from work and I could simply drop by for a cup of coffee if I felt like it.

I should be sleeping not babbling nonsense. Anyway, it has been a very busy week. I too was busy today. I woke up early. Ate breakfast (which was very unlikely). I even went to the market (to buy something I could cook for dinner. We had Tinola). I bought some plants too. Yea, plants. It’s nothing. I just had this sudden rush of how happy I was before when we had this little garden at our backyard (which we happen to not have anymore). I was happy then. I guess because taking care of half-dead plants kept me busy. As a little girl, I just enjoyed watering and talking to the plants. Yes, I talked to them — even sang to them when I felt like it.

And I washed my clothes too!

I want to go to DV tomorrow. I’m not just sure if I would put off going there. Because it’s soooo late and I haven’t had a decent sleep the past week. Well, let’s just see.

Good night bud.

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wala lang. sabihin nalang natin na na-miss kita. gaya ng maraming araw na hindi man lang kita nakita. hehehe!

boring maghapon. actually, nung hapon lang. bad mood as usual. sobrang nakakatamad gumawa ng reagents! pramis! bat daw ang tagal ko sa reagents sabi ni sir jet.. e yun kasi tinatamad ako. hehe! wala na naman sa tamang katinuan. dapat kasi natutulog ako sa kwarto hindi sa sala! hahaha!

ewan ko ba.. may maling parang ewan. hindi ko naman malaman kung ano yon. binabasa ko na nga pala yung nabili kong book dati. bente pesos lang kaya ko binili. shipwreck yung title. di ko naman alam na tungkol pala sa love affair ni john north at ng lovestruck na si lea yun no. pero ayos lang. maganda naman ang pagkakasulat. may sinulat akong post tungkol don… saying that “Louis gave me a different kind of experience.” hmmm… i might want to rethink that. siguro kaya binura ko rin yung post he he he! anyway.. i’m planning to read the entire book before actually making yet another post about it. he he he! baka kung ano pang maisulat ko. tsktsktsk!

dun sa collection kaninang umaga. may patient kami na nakakaawa. promising ito talaga! susme! matanda na kasi sya. hindi na masyadong nakakasalita. hindi rin naman makaubo. e anong gagawin ko? kahit naman anong tapik namin sa likod nya, dahil nahihirapan nga syang umubo e wala ding nangyayari. sabi nya sakin, “Tulungan mo ako.” na parang gusto kong umiyak dahil naaawa na talaga ako sa kanya. minsan nga naiisip ko, bakit pa kaya sila nagaaksaya ng pera para pumunta ng states? ano namang gagawin ng mga super matatanda na doon? maliban na lang kung magpapagamot ka.. bakit ka pa pupunta don for good? kung pasyal siguro ok lang.. ewan ko. wala pa lang siguro talagang matinding dahilan para umalis ako pinas.

dapat natutulog na ko e.. para naman hindi ako atakihin ng kabaliwan bukas. sinasabi ko na nga ba… masama talaga ang hindi umiinom ng gamot! ha ha ha! speaking of gamot, hindi pala ko talaga nakakuha ng gamot kanina! siyet. keri lang bukas na lang siguro kung maalala ko pa.

haaay! sana magpasko na… sana ngayong pasko ay maalala mo pa rin ako… at kahit wala ka na ay nangangarap at umaasa pa rin ako na makapiling ka at makasama ka sa araw ng pasko…. shet! hehehe!

hindi ko pa rin napapanood tropic thunder. nattempt na nga akong magDL na lang e. hahaha! gusto ko pa naman mapanood yon sa cnehan. mukha naman syang promising. toxic lang tlga sa clinic nitong week na to. ok din. ma-OT. buti nga kanina nagawan pa ni sir choi ng paraan yung OTmeal namin (na 2 days na atang drawing!) buti nalng! at least libre na dinner. di katulad kahapon, napagastos pa ko! hmp!

speaking of sir choi, hindi ko na talaga alam kung birthday nya na nga ba ngayon o hindi. pero ang alam ko 22 talaga yon. naisip ko kanina november 22. sabi naman nya november talaga. e ako naman hindi na ko naniniwala sa memory kong kamusta naman?!?! pero ayon.. kung birthday nga nya… e di heppi burtday!

siguro kaya ako bad trip kanina. di ko naenjoy yung masarap na sopas ni mang k. sira naman kasi! nagsstain ako ng slides habang kumakain. e di syempre madaling-madali naman ako sa pagkain! sarap sana non kung may kasamang coke! haaay! sopas!!!!!!! siyet ang sarap!!!

yoko na… tutulog na ko. miss you bud.

ayyy tenk yu pala dun sa manong sa bus. twice nya na kong binibigyan ng student discount khit di naman ako estujante. hindi ko naman pakana yon. alam nya namang nagttrabaho na ko. pero sino ba naman ako para tumanggi?!
ayun… magwweek na. sana naman e maging ok na ang lahat sa weekend. nawawala na naman ako!!! kamusta naman! tana tama na nga drama!

good night my dear void.

hi bud!

you know what? i was supposed to write yet another hate post. well not really. but something like it. hate post with a positive note on the end i suppose. but then.. something came up. and that something was over the hedge. literally “Over The Hedge.” sobrang nakakatawa! i kept laughing my ass off. ako lang ata yung maingay kanina nung nanonood kami! nakakaguilty lang kasi si jeds pa yung naghugas ng plato. he he he! i was gonna do it after the movie! i pinkie swear! hahaha! but thanks jeds. ako na maghuhugas bukas, pramis! hehehe!

about work. well.. we didn’t finish reading the slides early. there was a guy who came by the lab today to fix one of our microscopes. we had to read with the lights off (so we can see the flourescence of the bacilli better) but he had to work with the lights on (to see which screws go where). so there… we were stuck doing nothing for the most part of the afternoon. by the time we finished, our receptionist had gone home already. no endorsements whatsoever. i kind of felt bad about it to be honest. she could’ve said at least something. she did send a text message though, saying that she’s going home already. but she should have really said something. he he he! maybe she needed to rush home… hmmmm! (why oh why?!)

i wanted to feel infuriated. i wanted to react as violently as i can! but then you know.. it’s kind of weird. but to say the least, i felt like God was trying to calm me down or something. yea, i know it’s weird. i wanted to go ballistic! but then there is this thought that “Jc, you don’t want to do that. You don’t really want to get mad. You don’t like yourself when you’re angry.” well something like that. it’s like a broken record playing over and over again in my head! and i was like.. ok God. save me from the trouble of being angry. i don’t want to be angry. i just want to get the job done. and you know what the funny part was? when i got done with the paperworks and was about to clean our isolated workplace, my colleague told me that she had already done the cleaning for me. and i was like “ohhh thank you! thank you Lord!” God has been really good to me. He always has been.

You know i thought about the question “what if the whole thing about God is a lie?” i dare not ask that question because who am i to question His existence. How dare i to question God’s existence? but if it is a lie.. it’s a lie that i think i can sleep through the night with. it’s a lie that i want to hold on to through the good times and the bad times. it’s the kind of lie that i want to live by. because right now, you know if all these were a lie.. it’s God that kept me sane and whole. He is the sole reason i’m still breathing air. I could’ve just taken my life if i was so desperately distressed. but He kept me sane. for i don’t know what reason… and i don’t even know how He did it. He just did. I’m guessing that’s love. Perhaps. Unconditional. Mind-boggling. Earth-shattering. Pure unconditional love.

Speaking of love, there was this guy from work (again). I don’t know why.. but for some strange reason everyone just kept saying over and over again that this guy likes you.. blah blah likes you… likes you… and i don’t know.. i guess as a natural-born skeptic, i am entitled not to believe this bull. and my only reaction to that is… “fine! make fun of the single gal.” damn it! it reminds me of highschool… only this time… IT IS NOT FUNNY! not funny at all! because when you are in highschool, you have that excuse that you are young and you can just skip the boyfriend-bandwagon. who cares.. but now, it’s like… damn! you’re old! get a boyfriend! something like that. hello! this is me we are talking about! social issues! ring a bell!!! i don’t know! fine! just make fun of me coz im single! screw you!

i remember there was a time when a friend of mine asked me to do an interview for her friend. My friend’s friend was doing a paper on single women… not just single women but single-since-birth women. i may have written about it before, i don’t know. good times. she asked a bunch of questions like why are you still single… what are you looking for in a guy… what’s keeping you from being in a relationship… has there been anybody who courted you… those sort of things.. anyway. i’m glad i could help. so there…

being single could be a blessing and a curse. you get to do a lot of things. you get to go to a lot of places if you please. you have all the time that you need! but then there are times that you can just wish that you could have spent that particular moment with a particular someone to make it more meaningful to say the least. haay! ewan ko.. i’d wait. wait na naman?! wait forever? Gary V.? he he he! basta! i shouldn’t fret about this… i refuse to! so i’ll just shut up and relax. as Alcris Galura’s character in Endo said, “God will provide!”

Kumusta pare koi?

long time na ah.. 8-5 kase ako kaya di ako makapagsulat! hahahaha! lagi na lang akong inaantok o kaya naman wala sa sarili. well.. lagi naman!

nung october 4 nagpunta na kami ng manila east. hindi lang pala sya promising, may potential talaga! hehehe! buti na lang nagswimming din sila ate joy at ate she kasi kung hindi, wala tlaga silang ibang gagawin dun kundi tumunganga! hahaha! hindi sya katulad nung sa clearwater na masarap magpicture. pero dun sa manila east, mas masarap magswimming! akalain mo, after a long while, nakapagswimming ulit ako. namiss ko tuloy si mam erece (instructor namin sa swimming class sa uste.) tama sya.. maaalala talaga namin sya long after makaalis na kami ng uste.

si sir aldrin nga pala e mega-bakasyon sa singapore ngayon. nagtext pa nung paalis na sya. haay! wala na tuloy akong kasabay umuwi. ok sana pero hindi rin. ok kasi pwede na kong matulog sa bus. pano ang kulit non! ang ingay ingay tulog na ko’t lahat manggigising pa! hehehe! pero hindi rin kasi naman kung sino sino na namang nakakatabi ko sa bus at kelangan ko na namang akapin yung bag ko na parang mananakawan ako hahaha! at eto pa wala nang gigising sakin pag natutulog ako sa bus… :c haaay!

swerte din non no.. hehe! akalain mong sa states pa sya natuloy. grabeng bait talaga ni Lord! speaking of tate, gusto ko rin pumunta don. pero bakasyon lang ah. hindi yung tipong magttrabaho don. baka mamatay ako sa kaka-nose bleed! hehehe! sabi ni sir jet, e di tourist lang ang visa na kuhanin ko. pero kelangan ko pa daw patunayan na babalik ako ng pinas. na ang reaksyon ko pa e parang “e bakit naman ako hindi babalik?” hehehe! hello jc! marami pong TNT sa US. sira ulo!

at may ginawa pa kong kasiraan ng ulo kanina. syempre lunch. at syempre may coke. e tas tong si mam tek may piña. inalok nya ko e, tatanggi pa ba ko? syempre hindi. e ang sarap! kain naman ako ng kain no… ayan katakawan nasira tuloy yung chan ko kanina! hehehe! takaw kasi!

magwweekend na naman. last wkend ko. very unproductive. wala lang. laging petix. ewan ko ba.. .pagod lang din cguro sa work. this weekend… hmm ano kayang magawa? feeling ko dapat na kong maglinis ulit ng kwarto. yung tipong babaliktarin ko yung kwarto ko. guguluhin tas aayusin. it’s been a year since i painted my room. i still love it. pero gusto ko rin yung idea ng color combo sa max bren. light brown or pale yellow tapos black ceiling. astig! hindi ko pa rin nagagawa yung paglalagay sa frame ng pictures na kinuha ko. wala pa kasi akong nakikitang murang frame! hahaha! kuripot! baka gusto mo nalang akong regaluhan pwede rin! hehehe!

speaking of regalo, christmas na! haaay! nakakamiss yung kakaibang lamig ng pasko. ako lang ba yon o talagang may kakaibang lamig sa pasko? leche! kaya siguro malamig ang pasko ko kasi… nevermind! hehehe! awwww!!! ang saklap naman! asan na ba yung God’s best ko, Lord!?!?!

wala pa rin akong napapanood na movie. tropic thunder. body of lies (na sabi ni reb e pangit pano kasi leonardo yun! hmp!). keith (hindi ko pa natatapos, bagal kasi mag-up). kulam? heheheh! nyaks! ayoko! ayoko!!!!! waaaahhhh!!!

for the record, ang dami kong nadiscover na magagandang songs dun sa CD na matagal ko nang pinagiinteresan hehehe! it’s only compilation but the song choice is sooooo great! sobrang daming magandang songs! at sobrang daming astig na version.

ayy kahapon pala, pauwi na ko. may isang guy sa bus na nakatabi ko papunta sya ng camella. sya yung tipong obvious na hindi alam kung san bababa. he asked me to tell him kung kelan sya bababa. he was very nice naman. at pinatulog nya ko hindi nya ko kinulit ng kinulit. hehehe! at dahil don, bumaba ako sa camella. hehehe! he was cute! in fairness… well at least in a geeky kind of way.
i love history channel. not entirely obsessed about it though. kahapon may napanood akong series. the universe yung title. topic nila yung gravity. natawa lang ako. may scene don na nasa rollercoaster yung isa nilang ininterview. bago kumaripas pababa yung rollercoaster, sabi nya, “i’m converting my potential energy into kinetic energy!!! waaaah!!!” at naisip nya pang sabihin yon?! tapos may pinakita din sila na zero G plane. astig! i want to experience that. weightlessness.

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hindi ko alam na bukas na pala yung company outing sa club manila east. yep! club manila east taytay. sarap sigurong magpicture don! mukhang promising e! he he he!

wala naman akong nagagawa lately. just work. work and work. walang pasok nung october one! ahhhh! ang sarap! ayy pala… nakabili na ko sa wakas ng earphones. basag na basag na yung luma kong earphones! yahoooooo! tapos nakita ko na rin sa wakas yung cd ni nija na gusto ko! at nakopya ko na sya! hahaha! hanep yung nagcompile non! eric? eric na ka-work dati ni nija. galing! ohhh well… di ko naman mappost dito yun db.. nonsense din ilista.. he he!

nakatulugan ko sa si jason at bill kahapon! bakit ganon? sobrang inaantok na ko after ng i love betty la fea.. ahhh basta gwapo pa rin si john lloyd hahahah!

binigyan ako ng link ni reb (as usual) sa a very special love! na sobrang naaappreciate ko talaga! wahahhahaha! na naaappreciate din pala ng tatay at nanay ko! comedy din tong tatay ko e, magdownload daw ako ng KC! ngeks! pero panalo yun ah! sinong magaakala na pati pilipino pilms e pinipirata na rin ng mininova. tsktsktsk!

speaking of reb… lumipat na xa ng bahay!!! nalulungkot ako!!! waaahhhhh!!! may sarili nang bahay ang lolo mo! rebzombie.com astig!!!!! tara manggulo tayo sa bago nyang bahay! hahahaha!

magpapamasahe sana ko kanina sa let’s face it. kaso wag na lang. let’s face it! mahal don! hahahaha! massage lang… wala man lang sauna or shower or kung ano man. ano kaya yon? at pano naman matatanggal ang stress ko kung hindi ko maffeel ang royal treatment sa spa! wahahahah! tska isa pa, first time yun if ever, dapat magkaroon ako ng good experience or else hindi na yun mauulit ulit! kaya sa iba na lang… at next time na lang… too bad sobrang umulan nung wed na walang pasok.. di tuloy kami natuloy ni ate weng dun sa spa na nasa kyusi! nakufo! hindi ko pa alam kung anong spa yun at kung san! kamusta naman jc!

at bukas… picture galore sa club manila east. sana nga maganda dn! he he he! at sana masarap ang food! at sana totoo yung billiards don.. tska yung wall climbing at rapelling na nakalagay sa website nila. maganda yung site nila ah. mejo promising din. he he he!

ayun lang… ayun lang naman! aha! nakalimutan kong sabihin na natanggap si sir aldrin sa oklahoma! hahahaha! ibroadcast daw ba dito?!?! hahahaha! ok lang hindi naman nya to mababasa kasi hindi naman kami friends sa friendster! hahaha! speaking of which e dapat ko na syang isearch at hanapin sa friendster! cguro naman nagffriendster ang lolo mo! galing no… dapat pupunta na yon ng singapore. para maghanap ng work. tapos kagabi may tumawag na agency. tanggap sya sa oklahoma. stig! mas malayo. mas mahal! pero bawing bawi naman db? swerte ng walangya! he he he he! burger burger! masarap kausap to pag dating sa pagkain tska sa galaan. pero eto a… ewan ko kung bakit.. pero sa dinami-dami ng instance na kasabay ko yan pauwi, parang hindi pa rin ako madaldal pag kasama ko sya. pero sabagay… pipi nga pala ako! ilushonada! he he he he!

ganda nung camera sa slec. pero hindi ko masyadong type. canon ata yon.. ewan ko pero mukhang astig nga. mahal daw yon sabi ni mr molino. haay! sana naging i.t na lang ako….tsktsktsk! weh!

ayon lang… good luck ke kael exam nya bukas… cisco ehehehe! online naman! sbagay di nya na kelangan magaral magaling na sha e. hehehehe!

ayun lang ang balibalita! kelangan ko nang magipon! …ng lakas ng loob! hahahaha! magabroad na rin kaya ako ne? pwede kaya yon? dapat na bang i-entertain yung idea na yon? hmmmmm… wala naman ding kaibahan kung nandito ako… yun nga lang mamimiss ko si john… si john lloyd! hehehehe!

at si jen e hindi ko na nakakausap ever! asan na kaya ang loka lokang yon! hindi na rin nag oonline. haay! sana ok sya. kung san man sya naroroon.. .hanep! pero seryoso.. sana ok sya.

ayun yun lang … online si reb o hehehehe! magulo nga ang buhay nito!