About A Girl

.

there is this game at orangeshark called governor of poker. i tried it. fell in love with it. got addicted to it. there were (hmm im not sure) 13 cities featured there. and the goal is to win big in each city and move to another town. end goal? be the governor of poker. today, i finally decided to buy the last house. by the way, there were four estates to buy. so there.. i bought the last house. after that, the so-called best player in San Saba (the city i was playing at) offered me a round of poker. the prize was a horse which was supposed to take me to another city. i won. the thing is… the game was only featured! you have to download it to play the whole thing! and by download i mean you have to buy the software. damn! after falling in love with the game and carefully planning my way out of San Saba, i’ll only get a message that i have to download the game to continue to play!!!! argh! anyway… well i don’t know… i hope i can find a software for free.. hehehe!

anyway, it was fun. learned a lot. saw a lot of strategy. had an idea of what will work for me. got busted. won big. and now that i’m thinking about it, life is like a poker game. sometimes, life throws a couple of high aces. sometimes, life gives you low numbers offsuit. you may not like the cards dealt but you can and you have to make something out of it. it tests your patience. messes with your mind. drives you crazy. takes away your hope. boosts your confidence. challenges your guts. you win some. you lose some. in the end, you just have to move on with what you’ve got.

.

i’m still on vacation. technically on vacation. but there are still a lot of things that i need to do.

yesterday, i went to church. finally. i haven’t been going there for (i don’t even know) a couple of months now probably. i drifted. yea, that must be the word for it. and yesterday as i was hearing the message, the pastor talked about drifting away from God. i haven’t been going to church. yes. but i don’t want to believe that i have totally drifted away. maybe just a little. hehe! but there, i’m back with hope that i won’t drift away anytime soon.  anyway, isn’t second chances what life’s about? (but this is like the nth chance already… hmmm…)

oh hey.. i’ve been reading a new book. i got it on christmas. and i have just started reading it. i haven’t finished the lovely bones. and the other louis begley novel. and that other book that i bought. anyway, it’s okay. maybe i can finish at least one before i go back to work on january.

haay! i still have to clean the whole house. isn’t it nicer to start the new year with a squeaky clean house? i’d really like that. so here i am trying to clean the house. it’s such a mess. especially my room. it’s horrible! more like a jungle. a pink jungle. hehehe!

ohh teka last na… the rose plant that we have… well, well, well… may flower na sya! well… it’s just one yellow flower but it is soooo beautiful. especially because i personally saw it bloom.. and not just bloom. i mean i saw the plant’s growth. from that time that it seemed dull and dead. to the trimming of its withered leaves. to the springing of new life. new leaves that was once light green. to the manifestation of a small bud. to the opening up of that small bud into a beautiful flower. argh! ang ganda ganda talaga! i love it! you should see it. hehehe!

ayun.. ayun lang. i have to go. after a round of poker heheheh! see you my dear! mmmmmmmwaaahh!

happy new year!!! ayy nakalimutan kong banggitin na bonggang bongga ang SM Tunasan every saturday. meron silang bonggang bonggang fireworks na naglalast ng ewan ko… five minutes? ayun ang ganda! amazing tlaga! kung dati ang fireworks, roman candles lang na sisindihan mo isa-isa at pag pumutok e puti lang ang kulay. ngayon iba na. iba iba na ang kulay… mas malaki… after one explosion meron pa ulit.. at syempre iba iba pa ang shapes! amazing! kung pa’nong sa simpleng paputok lang dati e naging intricate na ngayon. amazing tlga!

ayun. i should leave. see you!

.

haay naku! hehehe! my vacation so far… ok naman! nakakapahinga pero syempre hindi pa rin maiwasan gumising ng maaga… kesho may gagawin. o kaya naman e may pupuntahan.

kanina, nagdivi ako. mag-isa lang ako pero carry naman. ang daming nabili! ang saya nga e. kaso ang tagal ko. limang oras ata akong nagpaikot-ikot kasi naman hindi ko makita yung binibilhan ko ng cute na stuffed toy. na syempre cute din yung may-ari ng tindahan! hahaha! inaassume ko lang na man na sya yung may-ari kasi sa kanya ako nagbabayad at tumatawad. haaaay…. ang sarap! nakakawala tuloy ng pagod. after kong makita yung stall nila, bumili na lang ako ng konti pang items tapos umuwi na rin. parang hindi nman sya chinese. pero parang din kasi singkit naman din sya. basta happy ako!
bukas. aalis ulit ako. hehehe! pero sa mall naman. una sa lahat e kelangan ko ng 6volts na adaptor para dun sa speaker na binili ko. kesa naman gumamit ako ng apat na AAA na battery. bibili na lang ako ng pwede isaksak.

bumili pala ako ng webcam. kasi cute yung nakita kong webcam heheheh! si stitch! yung sa disney. hehehe! ang cute cute nya nga e! impakto!

meron ding mic pero hindi ko ginagamit. weh! pipi ako e. bakit ko nga ba naisipan kasing bumili ng mic… tsktsktsk!

ayun… so far so good. sana maranasan ko naman yung sleep all day. o kahit yung sleep until noon. hehehe! puro puyat naman ako e nakakaloka na! bukas pa man din maaga ako. haay! sana magising na tlga ko ng maaga bukas.

at dahil jan matutulog na ko…. after ng isang round ng poker heheheh! good night dear void. mmmmmmmmmwaaah!

.

It’s the season to be jolly… fa lala la la lala la la..

Maligayang Pasko!

nakakatawa. kahapon may pasok kami. at eto pa 4pm pa kami umalis ng clinic. ok lang naman kasi hindi traffic. yun nga lang, paguwi ko ng bahay pagod na pagod na ko. e tapos magluluto pa xmpre ng kakainin namin para sa noche buena. ang toxic! sa sobrang pagod e nakatulog ako ng 10pm. pagkatapos kumain ng dinner, ayun! coma! ang nakakahiya pa jan, sa sala ako nakatulog hehehe! na parang wala na talaga akong kwarto e no.

nagising ako kanina kasi may namamasko. kamusta naman? tapos online agad. naaadik na ata talaga ako dun sa orangeshark na yon. governor of poker naman ang nilalaro ko ngayon. nakakainis! mananalo ka tapos matatalo! ayyy susme nakakapanggigil!

nung hapon natulog lang ako. hahahaha! napakaboring na pasko talaga! pero buti na lang nanood kami ng sine. Ang tanging ina nyong lahat. punung-puno ng cliche pero masaya! nakakatawa si ai ai tska si eugene. syempre mahal ko naman talaga si eugene. pero maganda tong movie na to. nakakatawa talaga. at eto pa, ang gwapo ni jiro manio. ewan ko kung tama yung pangalan nya ah hahaha! pero sya yon. yung bata dun sa magnifico. ayyy naku! kung super cute nya sa magnifico, sobrang gwapo nya sa ang tanging ina nyong lahat! gwapo din si carlo aquino hahaha! haaay! manood kayo!

gusto ko nga rin panoorin yung one night only e. ehehehe! pero ewan saka na yon. baka bukas. hihi!

tas ayon online ako ulit. hehe! sobrang saya! kasi naman walang pasok til jan 4. buti na lang na-declare na holiday yung jan 2. salamat madam president! hehehe!

wala pa kong plano para sa mga susunod na araw. ayoko na ring isipin. basta magpapahinga ako! nakakapagod na! haaay! sana talaga hindi na lang umalis si ate she. heheh! si sir jet naman kasi kelangan talaga. sana si ate she magbago isip hehehe! haaayyy…

ayy gusto ko palang panoorin yung the curious case of benjamin button. tska yung ice age 3. siguro naman pwede na kong makapanood talaga sa imax non no! hahaha!

ayun merry christmas my dear! xa na, magoopen na ko ng mga regalo! yahooooo!!! mmmmwaah!

.

hindi ako makapaniwala. six days na lang pasko na. nagbibilang na ko ng araw. ibig bang sabihin non nararamdaman kong pasko na talaga?

problema ko pa tuloy ngayon na nakaduty kami sa 24. pano kaya ako magluluto? teleport pauwi ng bahay? kung magluluto naman ako sa gabi, sinong bibili nung lulutuin ko? basta may solusyon pa yan. ayoko na palang maghalfday. napag-isip-isip ko lang na hindi ko kayang mang-iwan ng ka-duty.

kahapon anong oras na rin akong nakatulog. siguro magaalas dos na rin. pano kasi nagbalot pa ko ng mga regalo. nakakita kasi ako ng stuffed toys na maliliit dun sa divisoria. naisip kong magregalo na rin para sa mga kasama sa clinic. tutal naman wala kaming exchange gift. para masaya naman kahit pano. kahit naman magkikita pa kami sa monday, naisip ko na rin ibigay tutal pinagpuyatan ko ang pagbabalot non. ang saya saya ko kanina! sobrang saya! maraming nagulat sa pagdadala ko ng regalo. na para bang mayaman na lang ang nagreregalo ngayon. o siguro dahil ako ang nagregalo? ganon na ba talaga ako kamukhang kuripot? ewan ko rin. hindi ko man pinagplanuhan ang pagreregalo, natuwa ako dahil naappreciate nila ang regalo ko. pag naririnig kong “uyy thank you!” o kaya “bubuksan ko na tong sakin” na susundan ng “ang cute naman!” o kaya “mas cute tong sakin” o kaya “ano yung sayo?” na para bang mga bata silang ngayon lang nakakita ng ganon klase ng laruan. ang sarap sa pakiramdam. dahil alam kong masaya sila sa natanggap nila. at dahil iba iba yung laman ng bawat regalo, nakita kong excited silang makita kung anong laman nung naibigay sa kanila. ang saya saya ko talaga! hindi ko mapigilang ngumiti kanina sa mga comment na narinig ko. kung tutuusin, mas napasaya nila ako. wala na sigurong ibang regalo pang mas magiging makabuluhan kesa sa pakiramdam na nakapagpasaya ka ng ibang tao kahit sa maliit na paraan lang. o kahit sandali lang. sige na kahit korni babanggitin ko na rin dito. naniniwala na ko. it’s better to give than to receive.

nagbalak kaming pumunta ng star city kanina pero maraming tao. hindi na rin namin ipinagpilitan. pumunta na lang kami sa harbor square. buhay na buhay yung lugar sa dami ng tao. maraming ilaw. maingay ang tugtugan. na para bang nagsasabing maaga pa para matulog at nagsisimula pa lang ang gabi. masaya ako kasi hindi ko pa nakikita na ganitong kasaya sa harbor square sa gabi. isa pa, marami kasing ilaw kasi nga pasko. siguro pwede na ring sabihin na masaya akong hindi kami natuloy sa star city. kasi pagod na rin ako at mas pipiliin ko pang magkape na lang. bagay na ginawa naman namin. mas gusto ko yung ganong kwentuhan na lang. lalo pag pagod ako. apat lang kami pero nagenjoy talaga ako! bukod sa kape, nandon din yung tuluy-tuloy na kwentuhan. ang saya!

kaya nga eto, kakauwi ko lang ng bahay. nainis lang ako kasi nakatulog na yung nanay ko hindi man lang ako nakapag-gudnyt. wala tuloy akong good night kiss. pero okay na rin. hindi ko lang alam kung pupunta pa ako ng divisoria bukas. ok lang naman din kahit hindi. may balak na kasi akong magpagupit. natanggap ko na kasi yung sweldo ko. matagal tagal pa bago ako ssweldo ulit kaya kelangan tipirin to. pero naawa naman na ko sa sarili ko. kawawa na rin yung buhok kong kelangan na ng malawakang gupit.

malapit na yung pasko. malapit na rin yung bagong taon. ano na kayang mangyayari next year no? gusto kong magreminisce nung mga nangyari ngayong taon. hindi ko kasi nagawa yon last year. siguro nga kasi sobrang busy. pero hindi muna ngayon. kasi late na rin. isa pa kanina pa ako naghahanap ng tulog. ehehehe! good night dear void. sayang sana sayo ko na lang makuha yung good night kiss. hehehe! mmmmmmmmmwah! nytnyt@

.

gaya ng parati kong ginagawa, sinusumpa ko ang pagpupuyat at sinasabing hindi na magpupuyat ulit pero gising pa rin ako hanggang ngayon.

kakauwi ko lang. nag-ot. tumambay. may binabasa ako ngayon. boses ng isang patay na batang babae. the lovely bones. ni alice sebold. para maiba naman. break na muna kami ni louis begley. pero tatapusin ko rin yon. pramis. mukhang mas mabilis kong matatapos si sebold kesa kay begley. masaya din naman kasama sa kapihan si john north pero kasi ibang klase ng kwentuhan pag si suzie salmon ang kasama ko. sana matapos ko. kahit mabagal, pero sana talaga matapos ko pareho.

namatay na ng tuluyan yung mini-mums. pati yung dilaw namatay. hindi ko alam kung bakit. nalunod ata sa kakadilig ko. o dahil nakababad sa matinding sikat ng araw. hindi ko na rin alam. nakakaasar. kasi gusto ko silang mabuhay. kaya ko nga sila inaalagaan e. pero hindi. ayun. patay na sila.

yung rose naman. biglang tinubuan ng bagong dahon. mas malaki na ngayon. mas light green. na para bang hindi ko maintindihan. nung dumating sa bahay yung halaman na yon, may isang rose lang. na nalaglag din naman isang araw pagkatapos nitong dumating sa bahay. akala ko dati patay na yung rose. kahit anong dilig ko kc parang walang nangyayari. yung lalaking nagbenta sakin ng mini-mums, sya yung nagsabi sakin na gupitan ko yung rose. na ayaw ko pa sanang gawin kasi naisip kong baka lalong mamatay yung halaman. buti naman at nakinig ako sa kanya. ilang linggo ring nagkandalagas yung dahon nung rose. pero ngayon may bagong dahong sumisibol. at umaasa ako. na sana naman magkaroon din sya ng bulaklak gaya dati. di ko lang magets. kelangan bang magmukhang patay muna yung halaman ko para lang mabuhay sya ulit?

parang wala na ata akong ginagawa lately. trabaho. raket. kape. libro. internet. tapos uulit. ni hindi na nga ata ako nakakauwi ng maaga. pero sabagay ok lang. nawiwili na ata akong magdivisoria. weno naman kung maraming tao. basta pupunta ako. naririnig ko na ulit yung sarili kong nagpprotesta. marami naman talagang tao don. makikisiksik din ako! may stuffed toys pala akong binili. nabenta na yung tatlo. gusto ko pa naman yung isa. dispalinghado yung mukha pero cute pa rin. bibili na lang ako ulit. pero baka sa thursday na lang.

hindi ko pa rin nararamdaman na magpapasko na. hindi ko alam kung bakit. tumatanda na ba ako? kung dati nagsusulat pa ko kay santa, ngayon hindi ko na maisip pang mamili ng regalo para sa mga kaibigan ko. gusto ko na ayoko ko pero gusto ko pa rin pero tinatamad ako. parang ganun yung siste. kanina nung naglalakad ako pauwi. nadaan ako sa casino filipino sa U.N. maraming ilaw don. krismas na krismas. pero parang hindi ako naeexcite man lang. batong-bato na ata yung puso ko para sa pasko. kamusta naman. tapos sasabihin ng iba kung anong ibig sabihin ng pasko. tapos magiging mabait ang maraming tao sa mundo. magbabakasyon ang mga walanghiya. at magmamahalan ulit ang mga magkakagalit. pagkatapos non, balik sa dati. sana pasko na lang parati. siguro mararamdaman ko lang na pasko na pag nakita ko na yung sarili ko sa kusina. magluluto ng pagkain para sa noche buena. masaya yon. sayang wala naman akong bagong luto na alam. bukod lang dun sa hipon na may kasamang butter at bawang. gusto kong subukan pero masyadong mahal ang hipon para magexperiment ako. di bale saka ko na susubukan pag magluluto ako ng hilabos. at least yun alam kong lutuin. e kung palitan ko kaya ng coke yung sprite? masarap pa rin kaya?

ayun lang. isang buong taon na naman. ayokong sabihin na tumatanda na ko. pero ayoko din naman magpakawalanghiya. marami din akong gustong paghandaan at gawin. pero yung iba don, gaya ng pamamasyal sa kung san mang lupalop ng daigdig, paghihintayin ko muna. kelangan ko pa ng pondo para don. wala naman akong perang pwedeng lustayin. gusto ko rin ng camera. siguro regalo ko nalang to sa birthday ko. tutal malapit na naman. sana talaga. o pwede na ring early birthday gift. bilhin na natin! yahoooo!

nakakatamad nang bumangon sa umaga. kahit walang electric fan, malamig pa rin. kahit tirik yung araw sa tanghali, may malamig na hangin pa rin. sarap. parang mini-baguio. sigurado mas malamig don. sarap naman. may krismas party daw kami sa byernes. ewan kung san. ewan kung tuloy nga. may balak pa naman akong maghalf-day. grocery na sana ng lulutuin sa 24. nak ng teteng! ang hirap kayang mamili! at mas mahirap magluto magisa!

ayun lang. kaiba no. magandang gabi dear void. ayy pala manonood sana akong 100 kanina. yun nga lang inabutan ako ng OT. ayos lang. nakatambay naman ako kanina. di bale pag nagkaroon ng DVD yon, hindi ko na papalagpasin. isa pa may cinemalaya naman next year. siguradong showing din yon.

ayun. sya na. bukas toxic. matutulog na ko. nytnyt!

.

Hey buddy.

I think it was two Saturdays ago when I brought home two mini-mums. One was dark red and the other was golden yellow. Yesterday when I got home, the red ones just seemed a little dead to me. Well, I don’t want to think they are already dead but they look really bad.. dying probably is the better word for it. You see I bought this big square plastic pot. The first time I transferred the plants in it, I didn’t really put much soil in it. I only recognized adding more soil to the pot as a matter of urgency when I saw all the plants in it (including the yellow ones) wilting. So I then added more soil thinking that everything would turn out to be okay. The following morning the yellow ones looked okay but the red ones are still somehow dying! I thought they just needed time to adjust to the change I made but no, they are actually as of the moment still dying. So this afternoon when I got home I decided to transfer them to a separate pot. I’m thinking maybe the red ones need more space to grow. I don’t know. I just don’t want them to die that’s all so I’m hoping for some sort of miracle.. I don’t know. Basta nakakaawa naman kasi yung halaman. Binili ko pa, mamamatay lang din pala sakin. Haaay!

Today I attended my very first PAMET (Philippine Association of Medical Technologists) Convention. It was held on December 9-11 at the SMX Convention Center at Pasay City. Honestly, I didn’t get to attend the lectures they had. As much as I wanted the whole PAMET Convention experience, I wasn’t able to attend all three days. Well, I still have to go to work. I was lucky to at least be able to go today. Although all we did was eat, roam around and then get our certificate, it was fun! I was with Omma and we went to Moa afterwards. We were planning on watching a movie (sa IMAX sana) but then Madagascar 2 was not 3D so we decided to just have coffee. We went home after that.

So I was home early. I was already here around 5 o’clock. I transferred my dying red mini-mums to another pot. Then I was able (Thank God!) to exercise! I missed Shaun T. sobra! It was fun! Na-miss ko rin mag-exercise kasi naman no lagi na lang kami gabi umuuwi. Napakasira-ulo ko naman ata kung gabing gabi na e mageexercise pa ko! Baka lalong hindi ako makapasok sa lagay na yun! I finished the 40-minute cardio. Sarap!

Tomorrow we are going to have our Christmas party. I still don’t know if I’m gonna go. I want to go too but then I’m soooo tired already. I want to just go home and sleep and sleep some more! I don’t really feel like it’s going to be Christmas soon. Parang wala lang. Unlike before, like when we were in high school, we would prepare for a presentation or something. Or we would plan parties. Or way back in college, pag may paskuhan. Today, it’s just like… you go to work and then you go home… and then you eat (or sometimes even skip this part) then you sleep and then you wake up the day thereafter and do the same thing. Paycheck comes. You spend it. It’s gone. And you work for it some more. Sounds a little monotonous right?! Get a life Jacy!

Oh hey.. I got to try that Dark Cherry Mocha Frap. I don’t really like it. It’s just too sweet for me. I was thinking more about the dark mocha part of the drink but the taste of cherry was just too much for me. I liked it better when it was just Dark Mocha Frappuccino (without the cherry hehehe!). Sarap ng java chip sa MOA ah. ewan ko. It had some sort of kick in it. I don’t know. And the Molten Chocolate Cake was just soooo chocolate-y amazing! Ang sarap!

Yun lang. Hehehehe! Hayyy ang lamig…. ang lamig ng Pasko ko! hahahahaha! Gnyt my dear void!

Orangeshark is so addicting.

.

i’m watching employee of the month. hehehe! nakakatawa pala yon… who would have thought?

last week was interesting. i don’t even know how to tell it. hehehe! let me just start with a question. have you ever been hated so much for doing your job? well, i have. so what happened, huh? well… apparently there was a misunderstanding. there was this woman who thought that we were trying to lock her up in the collection booth. whenever i checked her cup and returned it to her, she looked at me as though she wanted to kill me or something. i just didn’t realize this until she went ballistic minutes after. she demanded to go out of the booth so my colleague opened the door then she looked for her passport. i gave it to her. she was heading for the door when i asked for her collection cup. then she pointed at me saying, “ikaw! ikaw ah! wag mo kong ina-ano jan!” it felt like i was playing patintero with her. i lost. badly. i chased her, still asking for her cup. she stopped in front of the elevator and that’s where she continued with her argument. “GAGO KAYO! GAGO KAYO!” to which i made no reply. “Kinulong nyo ko don! Gago kayo!” I explained myself to her, of course — saying that we never intended for her to feel locked up. we were just trying to do our job. anyway, she said there was already sputum in her cup and yea, during those times i guess i believed her. i tried looking at her cup from afar and it seemed she’s telling the truth. she then demanded to talk to higher officials — all the more reason i wanted to come with her wherever it is she wanted to go. anyway, she went two floors down and stayed somewhere she felt (as she said) “safe.” i followed her. crazy huh? crazy for her cup. well, i can’t just let her roam around the clinic carrying her specimen, can i? then she screamed at me (for the nth time… i don’t know) and said, “kung ayaw mo kong ma-high blood dito, umalis ka sa harap ko!!!!” i didn’t want her to die or something so i decided to just back off.

the truth is.. i was scared of her. at least half of me was scared. she was shouting at me like i was her slave or something. and there i was just hearing her every word… still trying to calm her down despite the verbal beating i was getting. it was like her slapping me in the face and me still offering my other cheek for her to slap. it was crazy. i know. i was crazy. i should have defended myself. but then i thought, what for? i don’t plan to go ballistic like her and act like a fool. if i did, i would have so much to regret afterwards. and i didn’t want that. it was a big fuss, of course. especially because a lot of people saw what happened. parang soap opera. if she were an antagonist, i’d say she could be mylene dizon. provoking. cruel. evil. but hey i love mylene dizon so this crazy woman can’t be mylene. she could just be herself and still be as provoking… and cruel.. and evil as any antagonist there is.

to end this story… well, our officer-in-charge was informed of what happened. she gave up her cup to my senior and went back to collect specimen for one more day. the day she went back she was just her usual self. i didn’t want anything more to do with her. so i just took her cup as soon as she finished and sent her off. that was it.

i didn’t want to fight her. she was pregnant and i guess pregnant women have that lame excuse for having legal outbursts of emotion. or even if she wasn’t pregnant, i think i would still do the same thing. she was a “CUSTOMER.” and as what they have taught us in the seminar, the customer is always right. that doesn’t sound right, right? but that’s how it goes. sometimes, when i replay that scene on my mind, i get to think that she was wrong. she didn’t have to go that far. she abused me verbally and i did nothing to defend myself. what a weakling?! i would always say. if i only lost my brain during those moments, i will slap her cheek after cheek after cheek until she loses her consciousness. or maybe i could just punch her hard on the nose until she bleeds. or poke her eyes. i don’t know. i was angry with her. i really was. or maybe i was angry because i couldn’t fight for myself. now, i don’t really know. but then everything has come to an end… and in my life she’s but a speck of evil dust. i have to move on just like what i did before when i was confronted by another (this time, literally) crazy woman. haay! bakit ba punung-puno ng loka loka ang Pilipinas at dalawa na sa kanila ang nakakasalamuha ko! may magnet ba ko para sa mga baliw?!

it ends here. she’s just another story to tell. and a good one too. to end all these, let me just say… BE KIND TO ANIMALS.
 

nytnyt dear void. namiss kita! alam mo super wala ako sa sarili lately. nakakaasar nga e. ang dami kasing nangyayari! haaay! ewan ko ba!!!! kailangan ko ng kape!!!!! gising jacy gising!!!!!!! *slapslap* focus!!!! focus!!!!

heheheh! yea, i better sleep. 7 ako bukas pero solo flight. good luck! eheheheh! well bud, ingat na lang! good night..

.

I don’t remember where I was last friday. I don’t really think I went to Divi alone after work. Anyway, last saturday I went to Divisoria with mimi. It’s really nice because we saw other stores that sell toys which are on bargain by the way. And what’s even nicer is when we went back to that stall we went to last weekend, the saleslady actually remembered us. And she even remembered my name. I like people who remember me (especially when they remember my name). I mean who wouldn’t, right? Her name is Irene. Really really nice. Great service too! And then we went to… well I’m not sure where it was but they sold items for babies. And then we went on buying more toys at the mall. It was fun! Especially because I was doing it with my mom. I mean, she’s great! I really really admire her. Hands down, she is a very responsible, driven, strong woman. She’s very much into business. I mean, I sort of am too. I remember selling chi-chi (junk food) to my dorm mates. I made little profit, of course, most probably because I too was eating my so-called paninda but I didn’t really mind. I was enjoying myself and that’s already profitable for me. Not good for business but what the heck… I guess when you have found something that you can do for free, you have found a really good thing. And I have… well, during those times, had found a good thing.

A couple of months from now, I will be celebrating my second year at St. Luke’s Extension Clinic. Yea, there is such a place… and I happened to work there. I used to think that I will end up working in a public hospital. I didn’t want to work in a private institution. My reason being “I don’t want to be demoralized by stuck-up rich people trying to squeeze the best possible service out of you.” Well, here I am now… living the exact opposite of what I had envisioned. But God has always been good. He gave me a job which I can take delight in. Funny as it may sound, I have always enjoyed working for this institution. This whole experience led me to new places… made me meet great people… allowed me to work and still have fun. It was beyond all what I had expected and truly I am grateful and very much honored to be a part of this place.

But of course, I won’t stay there forever. Just like those who have come and gone… and those who came and are about to go. I find it quite depressing to think that some are about to move on… well… somewhere… somewhere far. How foolish of me to think that it will be like this forever. But you know what.. maybe now I have come to accept that everyone has to move forward… in their own time perhaps… or in their own pace. At least now I understand. There is that sad part where one has to leave and one has to be left behind.  We are all but strangers, coming and going, in each others’ lives. Taking and leaving something that would forever change each others’ world. And if there ever were a book written, they’d be chapter regardless of whether they caused you pain or brought you joy. They added color and spice in your life.

For me, wherever life leads me in the future, I could at least say that I am thankful to have met the people with whom I have shared a wonderful moment or two with. For those who have come and are about to go, thank you so much. As Rico Blanco puts it, “You can thank the stars all you want but I’ll always be the lucky one.”  So here’s to life’s many journeys. May the roads lead us once again to the same bend.