About A Girl

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it’s my birthday! officially my birthday. and the end of my birthweek!

i was “forced” (at ako pang nagrereklamo!) to file a birthday leave yesterday. my senior said it would be better for me to file for a leave now because i wouldn’t be able to do so in the coming weeks. we’ll be short-handed for the next two weeks or so. so there… i stayed inside my room the whole morning. 2pm, i decided to get something to eat. i went to alabang. had coffee. i wanted to watch 17 again but thought it was too late to watch a movie. i wanted a massage too. well same reason. late na. after a couple of hours, i decided to go back home. american idol kasi. hehehe!

i love love love danny gokey. at xmpre si kris allen. arghhhh! gwapo! hahahaha!

God is really good. isipin mo na lang… last saturday i was supposed to go to festival mall to do two things.. first, attend a meeting and second, buy the camera i was saving up for. i wasn’t able to go because the meeting was cancelled. instead, i was asked to go to CCF. so i did. and i’m really glad i did because i loved the movie! fireproof yung title. awww sana magkaroon din ako ng ganung asawa… hahaha! after the movie, we ate. ebb and i talked about cashflow and his plans for his boarding house. i’m actually grateful having met him and all the people at ryp. i’m learning a lot. and i’m meeting a lot of people. and i have gone to places i never thought existed. he he he! i hope we’d be able to achieve our goals… well both personal and the ones we have as a group.

i felt so bad about not being able to buy the camera that i wanted. ang tagal tagal ko nang tinitignan yon pag nasa festival ako! i even applied for an ATM and had to pay another 150 kasi hindi ko agad kinuha ATM ko sa BDO. tapos hindi ko rin pala mawwithdraw pera ko. monday pa. i thought maybe it’s not yet time. God will tell me if it’s time. besides, i wouldn’t be able to buy anyway because i decided to use the money for another venture. profits muna bago doodads. hehehe!

sunday came. i was late for church because i stayed up late. ebb asked me to join a cashflow game that sunday afternoon. and the game was to be held at SM MEGAMALL!!! ang layo! but i said yes anyway. at church that morning, i was soooo blessed just hearing the message and the testimonies of other people. it’s in situations like that that faith becomes more and more concrete. hearing other people’s struggles and seeing them still standing firm and holding onto God… it’s just so amazing. and so inspiring. i could not help but be touched by their stories. sobra talaga ang grace ni God.

last sunday din, i was soooo surprised to see my dgroup leader. i thought she moved to makati already. she said she already did but she still goes to alabang every sunday. what a surprise! i haven’t seen her in a looooong time! she looked great.

after worship, jad and i looked for a dress that she could wear for her graduation. well… my dress got lost or something. i don’t remember where it is.. or if someone borrowed it or something. so we had to look for a dress and a pair of shoes. it’s funny that she bought a pair but didn’t wear it anyway. she gave it to me instead. after that, i went to megamall. got lost. i even called reigna to ask for directions. buti na lang alam nya kung saan! at buti na rin na naligaw ako kasi nakapagusap kami! hehehe! minutes thereafter, ebb texted me saying that there has been a change of venue. he asked me to go to citiland pioneer (i didn’t know where it was!!!!!!!!). i didn’t mind. he said he’d be paying the cab when i get there. when i got there, i played cashflow with people i met for the very first time. something that i don’t ordinarily do. talk about getting out of my comfort zone. i was soooo blessed to have met them. ang saya! we got positive feedbacks. and it’s sooo nice to be able to share to other people while learning something from them in the process. ang sarap ng feeling! sana maulit muli. he he he!

monday. graduation ng ate ko. sobrang toxic! nakatulog ako sa PICC hahahah! at least nakaraos na kahit pano. still a long way to go pero kayang kaya nya yon! sya pa! and guess what? God provided the camera for me!!! libre pa! tinanong ng tatay ko kung anong camera yung pinaplano kong bilhin. at nagoffer pang sya na lang ang bibili. i don’t know what to say and how to react. i thought it would be too much for me to ask for the camera but there he was offering to buy it for me instead. haaayss! ang bait tlga ni Lord. kaya pala napupurnada na lang parati ang pagbili ko. i just had to wait. i guess that’s the thing i learned. i may not understand what God is doing but i should trust Him still. He has been so kind and so generous to me just like my biological dad. and even if i don’t deserve the cam (i practically don’t even know how to use it yet) He (and he, yung tatay kong gwapo) gave it to me. haays… it may not show pero sobrang kaligayahan to… hays!

i have to go to work tomorrow. last day for this month. sayang nag-uuulan na ngayon. sana dumating ulit ang summer sun next month. wag muna sanang magsimula yung tag-ulan. oo gusto kong maligo sa ulan pero pwede bang after 3 months pa?! eheheheh!

a lot of people to thank… hmmm… reigna! xmpre! kahit toxic ka naalala mo. i miss you and blessa. blessa! ganda ng bbf no! hehehe! tao sa lab. thank you sa lahat. m tek, m tines, sir odz, m jules, m anne, m michelle, m daisy, mish millet, m sarah, omma, ate joy, ate joan, khariz, sir lester, sir eman at syempre kay kuya ramon na tinulungan akong bumili ng food. mga pipol sa i.t. maraming salamat! kay ate jo at kay mama kris! ate jo namimiss na kita!!!! white pasta ko!!! msjamie. tenkyu. jobs! asan ka na! far, nay tenkyu! lucy, sis miss na kita. jennnnn!!! my goodness! miss na kita sis! bat di ka na nagoonline?! kael, talagang tumawag pa. thank you! so nice. thank you thank you! record to, longest call so far he he! kay reb, na twice akong gnreet! hahaha! thanks zombie! kay sir jet, thank you kuya! hahaha! kay ferdz, maraming salamat! kay maynard, thank you! til next cashflow! he he he! at sa mga taong hindi ko nabanggit maraming salamat! at sakin pamilya syempre, hehehe! sa nanay kong maganda at sa tatay kong gwapo. at sa kapatid kong makulit! at sa kapatid kong doctor hanep ang sarap ng sisig!!!!!! the best! at sa bago kong kuya, kuya jack wahahaha! at xmpre kay God. thank you for giving me 23 years. thank you for waking me up each day. until that day that i find rest, i hope to be a mirror of you so that others may see you. thank you for loving me no matter how undeserving i am. ayan na! hala! at bago pa ko maiyak ulit hehehe! i would end this post. good night my dear void! game na!!! wooohoo. kahit 15 mins game time lang! hahahaha! na parang walang pasok bukas! hehe! nyt!!!!

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hey bud! ang tagal na pards. parang busy ata ako ngayon no. pero hindi naman. kinakain lang tlga ng game time yung oras ko. isa pa wala naman masyadong blog-worthy these days. na para namang blog-worthy ang mga sinusulat ko. hahahaha!

updates… haays.. work. ayun.. kasalukuyang sinasalin ni paulin sakin ang mga kapangyarihan nya. hahaha! susme! napunta sakin yung mga trabaho nya. sayang. malaking kawalan silang dalawa ni omma. kahit gustuhin ko mang magstay sila, wala akong ibang choice kundi maging happy para sa kanila. career growth nga db..

mahirap magadjust sa bagong trabaho. mahirap mag-”CORRELATE” hehehe! nakakapagod mag-isip minsan pero kailangan. ang hirap din ng DST. kasi naman maraming rason para masira agad yung specimen. tapos uulitin ulit yung test na yon. at ang hirap naman malaman ung mga nalalaman ni paulin. ang galing naman kasi nong taong yun. sabagay.. pwedeng maraming maging mali bago makarating sa tama. ang issue lang e dapat tuluy-tuloy lang kahit ngkakamali. haysss mamimiss ko si omma. wala nang makulit.

nasabi ko na bang nakapaglaro na ko ng cashflow? o basta yun, naglaro kami non. half-hearted pa kong pumunta sa araw nung unang laro ko non. pero naman, pano ba ko napapayag na magfacilitate nito bukas?!?! hindi ko na rin alam. basta ang nararamdaman ko, gusto kong gawin to. selfish pakinggan pero more of para sa sarili ko to. oo may pwede akong ishare sa kanila. pero parang mas more of learning process to para sakin. na xmpre isshare ko rin sa ibang tao soon. at para na rin maovercome ko yung takot kong magsalita sa harap ng ibang tao. gusto ko pa naman yung speech class nung college. sobrang weird! takot magsalita pero gusto yung speech class…haaays!

at baccalaureate mass ng ate ko kanina. graduate na xa! naks! im sooo proud of her. at for the first time pupunta ako ng picc. sa lunes na yon. graduation cerem nila. bakit ba kasi hindi ako umattend ng sarili kong graduation cerem?! sa susunod na gumradweyt ulit ako, aattend na tlga ko ng graduation. hmp! hehhehe!

yung camera hindi ko pa binibili. doodad! hehehe! siguro aabot din ako ng july. baka maunahan pa ko ni achuk sa pagbili. o baka sumabay na rin ako. hays! ewan ko. pakiramdam ko naman tama yung mga ginawa kong desisyon. besides income versus doodad?! pinagiisipan pa ba yon?! hehehe!

at….!!!! lapit na kong magbirthday!!!! can’t believe im 23. naaamaze ako. and soon i will be 70… haaysss…

wait! last na. nanood kami ng fireproof kanina. haaayssss! ang ganda! naaaamaze ako sa love ni God. sana maexperience ko rin yon. haaays! haaays tlga!!!

yun lang… i wish i could say good night. but i still have some things to do. anyway, til next time. miss kita.
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hey buddy. it’s been a week huh? i’ve been busy playing poker since… oh i don’t know anymore.

yesterday i received an invite from a friend (thanks viene!) to play cashflow. hmmm… cashflow is actually a board game that Robert Kiyosaki made. argh! im having a hard time trying to think how to explain it. well… Robert Kiyosaki is the author of Rich Dad Poor Dad. that’s just one of his many books about financial literacy. now, besides writing all those books, he also created a game (which is cashflow) to teach people on how to be financially free.

when i got to alabang this afternoon, it was already past 6. viene had told me the day before that she was not going to this said meeting. and i actually thought that it was okay for me to go since she knew the people that i was going to meet. but then when i got to festival mall, i thought that maybe this was a bad idea to begin with. because i didn’t know who i was going to meet and to think that i’m supposed to play a game with them that i don’t even know how to play! so i texted her asking if there is any way that i could get out of the situation. i swear i wanted to leave so badly but i just couldn’t. i was tired. true. but i gave her my word… that i would go. it was only when my sister texted me asking me if the game is already starting. that’s when i finally got the courage to go to seattle’s best. the least i can do now is go. i was already there so why not, right?

the game was fun and challenging. very educational. i don’t know. it was soooo much fun that you don’t even realize how educational it is. it is not boring. it is exciting because you get to play with other people too. i mean, nowadays, it is kind of weird to see people meet up just to play a board game. and what made it even more weird is that some of us met just today! and we were having such a great time! it was sooo peculiar! almost unbelievable..

when i first said yes to viviene, i was just up for the experience. i wanted to know how the game was played. that’s all. i never really thought i would gain sooooo much more than what i had bargained for. and it was allllllll worth it. i feel really really wonderfully blessed to have lived this day and tell about it.

maybe i should just talk about the actually game itself tomorrow. i still have to go to work…. hello rat race!

nyt dear boyd.

p.s starbucks’ java chip frap is waaaayyyyy better than sbc’s java chip javakula. hehehehe!

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tuesday. uyyy productive!

woke up late. (syempre alas dos ba naman matulog e). buti na lang umakyat ang tatay kong gwapo para gisingin ako. i stayed up to watch this korean series. i can’t believe i’m still talking about boys before flowers! argghhhh!!! what pisses me more is that it takes years for the video to buffer! and sometimes the link doesn’t even work!!!!!! haaaay…… (pero aminin, andun pa rin ako sa site na yun hanggang ngayon! lenchak!)

today, i officially started my training for…. hmmm… well… how would i say it? reading culture media?! yea, guess that will do. one of my colleagues is leaving for Dubai and since we are running out of manpower (hahaha!), the elders (hehehe!) have decided to train me officially so i’d be able to help in reading cultures. the thing is… i’m really really having a hard time because… ohhh i don’t know maybe because i couldn’t really tell which is which… i couldn’t even differentiate a cocci from a freaking fungal spore! i’m not sure what a positive for cording looks like! and sometimes… i don’t really see anything at all! but that’s okay i could put “no organism” as a reading. can’t i just say that for every slide?! damn!

maybe i’m having a hard time because… hello! it’s the first time i’m doing this on my own. i hate being asked to grow up too soon. but here it is happening right in front of my very eyes. there are responsibilities that i want to say no to but there they are. i seem to have no choice but take them in with loving arms. elk! even if i pray to God and ask Him not to let my friends leave, it’s already happening. hello resignation letters! so i resort to changing my strategy. why not ask God to help me grow beautifully amidst this crisis. well… at least my so-called crisis. everything will work out well, right? it has to work out. nakakahiya naman sa nagtuturo sakin. ahhh! really! i’m such a pain in the butt!

we still have a lot to do tomorrow. i still have a lot to do tomorrow. and people from abroad are coming here next week for a symposium or something like that. i forgot what they call it. how can we manage to get through this? just thinking about it makes me feel all fuzzy. haaay! don’t want to think about it anymore.

i should just go to sleep. i know. i know. and since this boys before flowers thing is not working for my benefit right now. i might as well just park my caffeinated body on my bed and get some rest. hmmm caffeinated.. it’s funny actually now that i’m thinking about it. my day started with an awful cup of coffee. i drank black coffee that had no sugar in it. i had a large coke for lunch. and another coffee after lunch (this one tastes wayyyy better!). then i had another coke while i was on my way back to muntinlupa. and when i got home, i snuck out to go to our neighbor’s store. i had some chips and another bottle of coke. (ahhh man! i’m good to go!)

i miss playing poker. i miss racing at pet society too. i don’t even see klyd anymore. i miss blogging. i miss my friends too. where are all the people at? everyone seems busy. argh! i hate it! i miss sleeping too. guess i’d be going to bed soon. i always miss you my dear void. wish me luck with work. good night buddy.

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it’s monday. i’m home!!! no work today. araw ata ng kagitingan. i really don’t get it. araw ng kagitingan is supposed to be celebrated on april 9. that’s a thursday. it was moved because that specific thursday is maundy thursday. i don’t get it. why move it? hmmm.. on second thought. they might as well move it. no work. with pay. yiihhaaa!

days like this make me appreciate my work more. we don’t work on holidays. we don’t have night duties. we do stay late sometimes though but that’s with additional pay. we have out-of-town trips during summer. we have christmas programs. oh and bonuses too! i just don’t understand myself sometimes. that whenever other people starts leaving, i feel like quitting too. (siggghhhh)

i don’t know what to do today. i could do anything! or nothing. still need to wash my clothes. still have two days of work left for this week. and our supervisor gave birth to a baby boy. so that means she’s not going to be at work for a couple of months. by the time she goes back, my other colleague will have to go on maternity leave too. crazy huh? you can add to that the fact that a couple more medical technologists will leave soon too. and one more is just planning to finish her contract. me… well, i intend to stay. not because i don’t have anywhere else to go, but because i want to stay. just so until that day that i’m called to leave. until then.

i haven’t been blogging regularly for weeks now. i have been watching this boys before flowers series. it’s the korean version of taiwan’s meteor garden. i looove meteor garden but this series… mmmm definitely has a place in my heart. love it! love it! love it! there is a guy there that looks like mr noname (this guy from ust whose name i didn’t know for a year or so, i only found out through a friend, thanks blessa! lol) what pisses me off with watching this series online though is that it takes years to buffer. but it’s definitely worth the wait.
i went through my facebook and found this quiz. how sarcastic are you, really. and i got the test result. it said, “People can’t tell if you’re angry, happy, or constipated. You probably make jokes that no one understands and you think it’s because they’re stupid and not because sarcasm isn’t always funny. You might be joking all the time but since it’s in your nature to test different levels of sarcasm in people you probably don’t laugh much. Everyone thinks you’re smart but also kind of an ass too.” i think they got me figured out. hehe!

well… off to do other stuff. i should clean my room too. maybe later. when i get to have the house to myself. i hate cleaning the house when someone’s here. i’m kind of trapped in my room right now. uh oh! later void.

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